Day Started Good

Started out to be a great day. Got really cool last night. Wish it had helped me sleep!

Lunch with my brother and daughter. Good company and good food. Plus a nice hug. Those are far too rare in my life but I guess I get what I deserve.

J and I went through photos today like we do most sundays. Fun to see some of the old times. But there were a couple that made me sad. A photo of me and someone I was once very close to. We were laughing and enjoying each others company. I miss that. Another one of someone I was very close to who has since died. Very sad. And a couple of photos of my grandpa in the nursing home. Not good.

Then I realised I hurt someone I am very close to today. I never meant to but apparently I never think of the other person's feelings. I cannot begin to say how bad I feel. And I deserve to feel even worse.

When I got home I brought Nico in the house. My spouse always teases him. Always. I have asked him not to but he ignores. Then he wonders why Nico tries to attack him. So he teased him and Nico ran up on me to the back of my chair. In the process he scratched the side of my face by my ear with his teeth and claws. I let out a yelp and grabbed my face and started to cry. My spouse just walked out the door and never cared if I was hurt or not.

I cried all the way home and still am. Again, I guess I get what I deserve. But always at someone else's expense.