07/2026 - Sunday the 26nd - MY JOURNEY

Today's Name Day:  Jasmine , Jesper

I have a cousin Jasmine.  Met her but don't know her well  Lives nowhere near me.  The only Jesper I know of is a Swedish golfer.

    Today was más o menos.  I did not sleep good.  Awake often.  I cancelled the day knowing I did not have time to sleep before a meeting.  I napped & feel some better.

    Miserable weather again.  Right now it is 104F or 40C at my house.  Humid outside.  We do have a breeze today.  I hate summer.

    Last night before going to bed I went out to feed Daisy.  And there was a possum on the porch getting a drink of water.  Never ever hurt a possum.  They are good for your yard.  They eat thousands of ticks from the area surrounding your house.  And rattlesnakes cannot hurt them.  They cause few problems.  They never act like they will hurt you.  Just walk away.

    Quiet dqy.  Nothing from MM.  Wrote a few minutes asking if we were eating out.  He has been very sick today & I think he wanted me to buy food for his kids.  Sorry not today.

    I can feel that my blood sugar is low.  Had a quick snack.  Soon supper.  My depression is a bit better.  Stress stays the same.  What causes my stress is always present in my life.  If I just had a support person or group.  What a change that would make.

    Cats are more active today.  Not hiding so much.  Weird.  Cinder keeps turning up on top my fridge.  That is truly odd.  Kisse has always climbed up on it.  And they are mostly sleeping in our bedroom at night.,

    Marriage memories keep coming back.  I always thought we would have a few years of Willie being semi-retired to we could enjoy a life together.  Dementia took that all away.  And his alcoholism did not help.  We both got screwed big time.  He was too nice to have all that stuff.  Trying to remember all the good things ----  trucking, Vegas, weekends away.  Everyone loved Willie.  Very few of his friends liked me.  Husbands were friendlier than the wives.  At least they would say hello & good bye.  I never or hear from any of his friends.  I must be a really bad person that no one likes me much.

Yay!!!

Daisy

                                                                       

                  

 

07/2026 - Saturday the 25nd - MY JOURNEYta

 

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Today's Name Day:  Jakob

I had several more recent ancestors that were named Jakob.  All had the last name of Train.  All related.  An old swedish first name.  Never hear it now.  Maybe in Scandinvia.  My Train family used to be important.  They had a furniture store, radio repair shop, horse drawn carriage, repair shop, & funeral home.  One version of the funeral home was the second floor of the furniture store.  A block away was another location where they prepared the body but no service.  Then they moved to a large home of all their services.  That remains today. Beautiful.  There was also a large building just across the alley of their big business bulding.  For some reason it was torn down.

    Today just another day at home alone.  I had a long email today from JL.  She had lots of good news.  Nice to hear.  Glad for her.

    A miserable weather day here.  Right now it is 102F or 38.8C.  The humidity is 42%.  And no breeze.  I cannot breathe outside.  Painful.  My house has not gotten very cool today.  Probably need to have it checked.  Poor Daisy has to stay outside.  Wish I could bring her in.  I make sure she has fresh water.

    The next 2 days are replays of today.  I want to go to a program at the SVAFC on sunday, but do I really want to get out in this heat???

    Had photos from CF.  That cool Minnesota water looks inviting.  He is fishing on his days off.  I think he does not work on fridays or saturdays.

    TV is ok.  Watching Josh Gates.  He was in a haunted mental hospital.  Original it was like a huge town like arrangement.  Lots of kids/people were tortured & died with medical procedures.  Has a cemetery of 7000 graves.  Now he is in Mexico.  I love his shows.  Always learn something,  Better than all the murder & maim shows on the "real" networks.  I refuse to watch any of those.

    The kids slept near me all last night.  Babysitters!!!  😁

    I tried to nap & did a little --- heat & all.

    A good friend sent me photos.  He is now in Italy.  What fun.  I would just like to go to some nearby towns to take photos.  Of course there is no one who can or will  drive anywhere.  Of course not.  That would be asking far too much.  I might to enjoy life a bit.

    I have had terrible trouble getting my internet to work on my iPhone or laptop.  A while ago when my laptop updated there was one file I needed to use a password for it to sign in.  But I could not remember & just ignored it for a while.  Well in an email about my iPhone & etc.  They showed one how to change that password an easy way.  Really easy.  And like magic. Everything works perfect.  Well who knew.  It updated everything I own & all is great.  What a joy!!

    I got brave & checked my blood sugar. today  Almost normal.  Yay. Knee is much better today.  Walking without much weakness.  Guess I will survive.  And making sure I take my med for depression. Should help too.  Won't supply me with a support group or friends but maybe I can get where I don't give a damn.

Damn miserble weather

Wish I had someone to go to coffee with.

I took this photo.  It is a musk that grows in the ditches along roads.  Not the harmful illegal musk.

Family

I want this weather NOW.

                                                             

           

07/2026 - Friday the 24th - MY JOURNEY

 

Today's Name Day;  Kristina , Kerstin

I had cousins with these names.  Love them both.  especially how Kerstin is pronounced.

    Today was a so-so day.  Or in Spanish más o menos.  Slept ok.  Stress is over whelming.  As is depression.

    Had on odd morning.  My phone rang at 9am.  The hospital.  But  I was not with my phone.  No message left so I called them back,  I finally talked to a nurse & she knew what it could be & who.  There is a test Dr. Baxa wanted on bone density or something like that.  The nurse got me to who did that test.  I told her my name & being a patient of Dr. Baxa.  She heard my name & hung up.  I called back to leave her my phone number.  Now for the rest of the day everytime I got a text I checked.  Not helping my stress.  Someone could have explained why no one wanted to talk to me.  Either the schedule it or they don't.  Will call next week again.

    Warmer today.  In the 90s.  Had a brief shower early morning.  Now there is no chance for rain for a week & a half.  But really humid here today.  And a few days of extremely hot.  

    I planned to eat supper out but woke up from my nap sick to my stomach.  Probably what I ate for lunch.

    Had an email from JL & a photo or two from MM.  And saw a good friend is flying to Denver.  I can only dream.  Wish there was a local uber driver who could take me to Wichita.. HA.

    I rarely  watch CH 12 but mostly CH 10.  I really like their weather man.  But today is his last day.  Moving back to Austin, Texas.  I will miss him.  Wish him luck.  Going to be in charge of a station there & their entire weather department.

    That my day.  Nothing fun.  No caring.  Sigh.

Me as a baby.  When I was happy.

4 generation photo. If only my grandma Mimi had lived.  Would have made a difference to have someone support me.

I think it was either a photo taken at Easter or my 6th grade graduation.  I remember that the dress was green checks with lace.  I do not look happy.  Childhood was difficult for me.  All family locally had nothing to do iwth me.  I could not please my parents.  Will stop there.

Me & Daisy