7/2026 - Thursday the 16th- MY JOURNEY

 

Today's Name Day:  Reine , Reinhold

    Today was a good day, but yesterday was not a good day.  Just plain worn out from stress & seeing my eye doctor.  I brought supper home but it made me sick.  I did not work. on wednesday..

    My eye doctor was scared I had a very bad eye illness.  But luckily I do not.  My symptoms are very blurry vision when trying to read, mostly at night.  And at night in bed when I turn all the lights off I have areas of where I can on see black odd shapes.  It can block out my doorway to the hall.  Or areas on the wall, ceiling, windows, etc.  And my doctor knows what causes all my symptoms.  It is stress.  And how do I avoid stress?  I cannot avoid it or fix it.  It is in my life at all times.  I am unable to avoid or change it.  So instead of work, I rested.  It is not job causing it.  Love my jobs.

    Did make it out to eat.  And I was quite surprised that one of the waitstaff surprised me with a nice hug & some nice words.  Maybe he sensed I was feeling bad about life.  He had no idea I needed his nice gestures.  It is rare if anyone asks how I am.  Or checks on me.  Even if I have been sick I still get ignored.

      I knew that a large box of cat food, etc waiting for me at home.  Plus a second smaller box.  But I have no support group that helps me when I might desperately need help.  And no one ever botherers to offer any help.  I managed but it made my pain much worse.  I sat & cried for a while.  Such is my life.  I know who would help if they were not at work & I know who would never help me for any reason.  I beg no one.

    Today was lunch with my usual thursday group.  We met at the Crown & Rye.  I had Swedish meat balls on mashed potatoes.  Excellent.  

    After lunch I had groceries to pick up.  Two bags that were not too heavy. Cinder & I are set for a week or so.  Nice to get what I really want.  Helps to use their app & check on what I want compared to what they offer.

    Hot today.  Saw 95F.  By sunday or monday out weather will feel like 105F.  I hate summer.

    Tomorrow is a work day.  No lunch planned.  Maybe will next week.

    TV showed the awful rains & flooding in Texas.  I have a friend who lives near that area.  I hope she stays safe.  Scary.

Cross on my house.

Took these photos

How I wish!!!!

                                                                            

                           

7/2026 - Tuesday the 14h- MY JOURNEY

Today's Name Day:  Folke, 

Kronprinsessan Victorias födelsedag

(Crown Princess Victoria's birthday of Sweden)

    Today started very stressful.. Terrified of eye doctor appointment & what he could find wrong with me.  I had learned a few diseases that it could be bothering my eyes.  I get blind in the dark in bed.

    Well, it was not what Dr thought it might be.  But he double checked & scanned my eyeballs.  All is well. But he does know what is causing my blindness.  Stress.  I guess good to know but what to do.  Not my 2 jobs.  I knew they are not stressful.  I am happy at both of them.  I cannot fix the stress.  FML.

    I stopped at Arby's to get supper.  Very good.

    I was so upset today I forgot a meeting tonight.  Called LL to give her my message of not being there.

    Saw 91F today.  TV weather says we could be 100F on sunday.  I hate summer.  At least there is no humidity.  Helps.  Tried to sit out last night.  Too many bugs.  No breeze tonight,  I want to be with Daisy.  Got a few photos last night.  She sure loves me,  Wish I could bring her in.  But do not trust my older cats.

    Now to relax.  And watch my soaps.  Saw a little of FIFA.  Enough to know who won.

    Called KN.  Nice visit.  Saw him drive through my yard.  Too tired to get up & go outside.

Best friend John Bergers.  Sure miss him.  His birthday is on Bastille Day.  He was even in Paris one year for his birthday.  And he was positive the fireworks & music were just for him!!!  I bet he is there this year also!

Some birthday photos of Atlas & his dad.

Daisy

Read the title of the book!!

Hospital buddies.  Danny, me, Peter.  Those were fun times.  Played games, cocktails, dancing,   Fun times.

                                                                                 

            

7/2026 - Monday the 13th- MY JOURNEY

 

Today's Name Day:  Joel , Judit

I have 3 friends named Joel.  Have a cousin named Judy.  She is sick now & in a home.  Went to school with a Judith.  I enjoyed visiting with her at our class reunion.  Wish she lived closer.  Wonder if she would meet for lunch if I drove to see her?  Willie was in school with a Judy

    Today is rather stressful, but I am surviving.  Yesterday was my great grandson Atlas's 6th birthday.  He chose to have it at the Öl Stuga.  It was so much fun.  I saw several friends I do not get to see often.  Met friends of MM's whose names I knew & we all liked each other.  Must plan to see them again.  And a barmaid from Hamburg Germany.  She calls me Grandma!  Love it!

    The boys had lots of fun.  I had supper & so did they.  And cupcakes.  I also had a mimosa.  Nice.  I got lots of hugs.  A worker from Jalisco's came in & sat with me.  And gave me tons of hugs. While he drank lots of beer!!

    We were in the small patio & the boys & others were on the large patio also.  I just wanted to be in the shade.

    MM paid my bar tab.  I told him not to do that but it was still nice.  Saying goodbye to MM, boys, his girlfriend, & a good friend of mine.  Nice nice hugs & several "I love you's". was the best.  Must at least text him often.  And he got his band back together so I am going to see them when they open a dance for another band.  Fun.  Always wanted to see him perform!!

    My laptop is not working right.  Irritating.  Today is better.

    Doctor appointment tomorrow.  I am scared to death of the unknown.  Not telling many people.  I tried to tell someone who should care & got ignored.  Will ignore back,

    Weather stayed in the 80s today.  Hotter is coming soon.  I hate summer.  Will be 100F for me here.

    It is true that we have very few family anymore.  The family who really love me were & are in Denver.  Most are gone now.  I know dozens of local people but none are true friends.  I am rarely included in anything.  So I am lonely a lot.  But I now know how much I am loved.  And it feels damn good,

 

Atlas

Great friend

Sorion

MM with friends who are connected to a great band!  Cannot wait to hear them again soon.

My great grandsons ---- Junior, Atlas, Sorion

Two boys & a great friend

In. my memories this week,  Taken in 1962.  Sweater was a grassy green.  Hair was strawberry blonde.  Lordy, what a photo!!!