13 november, 2023 Wandering & Capturing Moments

 

World Kindness Day

Today's Name Day is Emil

    Today went much better than yesterday.  Nico & I both slept pretty good last night.  Finally.  I hurt all night as usual.

    Today my pains were less & tolerable until time to go to town.  Got in the car, hurt again.

    I took a shower & shampoo after lunch.  Hair was long overdue for shampoo.   Looks & feels better.

    Went to Lindsborg this afternoon.   I need napkins for our supper in my historical group.   I am supplying all the dishes, etc.   I refuse to cook.   As I was walking to pay, a necklace caught my eye.   A key on a chain.  I bought it & put it on in the car.  Love it!!

    JR & I had supper at Jalisco's.   I was thrilled to have real food.   Carnitas for me tonite.   Excellent!   Nice visit with MA.

    The drive home was one of my best.   No traffic

& quiet.   Nice. 

    MM is still in the hospital.   He got real food today.  Hurt to eat but never made him sick.  Has a couple of new problems.  Maybe home tomorrow.  He called on the phone tonight.  Nice to talk to him.  He is on the floor I worked on for far too many years.  Not sure I could walk that far & no idea if there is anyone to push me there in a wheel chair.  When he is at home I can see him.  IF he needed me I would have found a way to get there.

    Trash tomorrow.   Never got it all out & no boxes organized by the bins.  It got windy & when the wind quit I had other things to do.

    Tomorrow I get the new part in my furnace added.   After lunch.  Good.

    Photos are seasonal.   I took several of them --- Christmas lights/tree/street, stars, food.  Leaves are not mine.

                            

12 november, 2023 Wandering & Capturing Moments

 

 National Pizza with the Works Except Anchovies Day

Today's Name Day is Kristian

    I was not able to blog yesterday.   Sorry.  I got little to no sleep Friday night.  I cried most of the night over Nico.   I have so many guilt feelings that my poor choices is causing him to be ill & to die.

    Then I got word that MM was much worse.  Had had been sick for 3 days ---- severe pain, throwing up, no food, no meds.  He went to the ER in town.  Then they transferred him by ambulance to Salina.  That was the last straw.   KW took the kids to Wichita to their grandma & I went to the hospital to sit with MM.   The two little ones greeted me with hugs & love you's before leaving..  At least 5 times.   Sure needed those!!

    I just could not function last night to do anything.   I managed my Spanish lesson so I do not lose how many lessons I have done.  Guess it does not matter but that was all I did.

    No sleep last night.  On Saturday my hip quit hurting.  I was able to walk to the ER with ease.  And later back to my car.

    Went to bed.  Hip pain again & no sleep.  I cancelled today.  In pain, hard to walk, &  super depression.

    I should have forced myself to at least eat out tonight.  But I just did not have it in me.  I want to see MM so bad but KW  is with him & they both write me often.

    I tried to nap today but could not.  I changed the blanket on the sofa which is nice.  I spent the afternoon editing photos & sorting photos I have.  It was sort of relaxing.  Did not cook for supper but that is ok.  Just for me so what does it matter.  If I lived in town I could have ordered in.  If I just had someone who could bring me food but god forbid there be someone for me.  I have only me to depend on.  Refused to ask KW.  Too far to drive.   It is really tough to lose most family & have few friends.   Alone is not good or fun.   And, of course, no one but MM offered help.  No one else for me.

    Weather is ok.  We had a little rain yesterday morning.  Did not get much but it smelled nice.

    Tonight I set up a new diffuser.  I am using the essential oil Autumn Eternity Blend.  Smells nice.

    This afternoon I was a long program about Normandy & all the new information that they are finding.  Very interesting.

    I apologize for whining about my life.  I try to stay quiet.  I learned fast that when Willie died I became invisible to all of his friends.  That has not changed.  Nor will it.  And with several chronic diseases,  your learn fast that no one cares or wants to know.  So I try to keep quiet.  In the car yesterday on the way to the hospital. I actually did some yelling.  😵  Needed to do that!!  Have to do that more often!!!  Hope no one could read my lips!!

    Photos are mostly from out here.  Might be an odd one or two.  I will try to be in a better mood tomorrow.

                        

09 november, 2023 Wandering & Capturing Moments

 Today's Name Day is Teodor

    This morning was ok but this afternoon was not.  Difficult times for me plus a change in the weather is attacking my body.

    Cannot write today.  My mind is whirling.  No need to complain.  Told I should be used to this.  I am tired of being alone with no support other than it is what it is.  FML.

    Photos are of our cattle.  One shows how much dust there is when someone drives down our road.

            

                

03 october, 2023 Wandering & Capturing Moments

No blog again.  I had a dr. appt that was excellent. Then I got a call about Nico's appt yesterday.  All bad news.  I am devastated.  Cried driving home.  It is always something & I seem to always sit here alone to deal with it.  Hope my nerves are better tomorrow.