13 December, 2022 Wandering & Capturing Moments

    Did not get much sleep last night.  Too stressed. Thunderstorm. Restless Nico.  Nice to get rain.

    Weather was a mess last night & today.  Not for me but others.  SW Kansas had tornado warnings.  I think it just rained luckily.  But blizzard conditions in NE Colorado, NW Kansas, Nebraska & north & east.  At one point there were no roads open to enter or leave NE Colorado.  And roads kept closing further east in Kansas as hotels filled up.  There were white out conditions & up to 10 inches of snow.  We might get snow next week.  Might.  Always iffy for us here.

    Last night I tried to get Cinder to come in.  She got damp in the rain.  I think it was too wet for her to get under the house.  Maybe I should rock the entrance so it is not muddy.  She came from the east once & we have an old dog house there.  Maybe that is where she was.  She finally did come in.  She and Nico snuggled.  Then Kisse sort of hissed.  That was the end.  Just now she walked in here but went no where.  Keep trying before next week & the dangerous cold that is forecast.

    Nico just demands his corner of the sofa.  But I am here & staying.  So he is laying between me & the pillow behind my back.  Does not bother me if he is comfy.

    My stress has grown to almost unbearable conditions.  Wish  I had a therapist.  I need someone to talk to.  People don't care how I feel or I get lectured.  And it just gets worse.  No relief in sight.

    Quiet today.  The only action here today was trash pick up.  I am in no hurry to carry trash out.  Wind is too cold.  Cooling off fast tonight.  It is 33F now.

    I managed to get to town to get groceries.  And as normal, I did not get all I ordered.  Just drives me crazy.  How can they be out of so many things at one time?  Plan ahead.

    With little sleep last night I managed a nice nap.  I needed it.

    Today is the Sankta Lucia festival.  Lindsborg always celebrates it on a weekend to get the most tourists.  My photos are of Lucia today.

                    

14 june, 2022 Wandering

    What  a day.  Seems like each day just gets worse.  And worse.  I did have a hair app't.  And with no warm water, I did not care what was happening, I was getting my hair shampooed, cut, & styled.  My morning was good.  I needed HP, my stylist, & some pampering.  And a hug.  Those are few & far between.

    I picked JR up & we had pizza.  I actually had pasta & it was sort of tasteless.  Maybe just me.  Then we went to my house.  I have never ever been a good housekeeper.  And the more I hurt, the less I do.  I have never had anyone to give me some help.  Not my husband.  My kids helped one day.  That was not a good day.  Today we went through lots of stuff & JR carried things out to my trash bins.  He even flattened all the boxes.  Then he walked all around my yard & picked up any trash he found.  Plus he noticed my back door has no door knob.  Huh???  Dang.  How did that happen?  Something knock it off in all the strong winds we have had?  Now what??  I will not open.

    I called my usual plumbing guy, who promised me he would return in hot weather to add freon to my AC.  I told him what I needed.  He did not care.  Refused to touch my water heater for any reason.  He had too many AC's to work on.  Guess he forgot one was mine.  I asked on FB for advice on who to call.  I got many names but really do not know any of them.  I called someone family had used.  But they may not drive out here.  Oh the joys of country living.  I talked to the secretary twice but never heard more.  So I wait.  I have someone in mind but I want to make sure who I get will do a tankless water heater.  So now I wait.

    The room my closet with the heater is a room with stuff in it ---- my stuff, Willie's stuff, Mom's stuff.  It is a catch all.  JR might have to help me get a path to the closet.  AND.  Now I see the water heater is dripping  a little again.  It was dry this morning but not tonight.  I am so tired & so stressed.  Will make a path tomorrow.  With help.

    Tonight I am truly at the end of my rope.  Nico has gotten in to more stuff than I can count.  He has a package of dog treats he does not even like.  I collect antique post cards concerning my town.  He somehow got a hold of 2.  Luckily there were not hurt.  He cannot mind one request.  I decided maybe he needed to go out.  Did he do anything?  Nope.  Just roamed around, rolled in the grass, sat & stared.  Getting up & down is now a cardiac workout for me.

    Hope he is calm now for a while.  Hope.  He "helped" JR work.  Kisse was hiding, as usual.  I need to sweep the living room tonight.

    Saw a farmer harvesting wheat leaving Salina today.  I texted my nephew & he started this afternoon.  His son is helping as usual!  His wife has checked on me twice.  Nice.

    I keep wondering when I will have a good & relaxing time & people to enjoy it with.  Should not wonder.  Just makes me cry.  Had one bad moment yesterday.  Another today.

    Photos are a mix.  First photo is a Swedish apple tree.  My grandfather made them.  All are different.  Then Lindsborg's city building.  Think it was a bank originally.  Local dalahäst.  We have many in town.  Then past harvest photos.  And a bear collage.