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Monday, April 6, 2026

4/2026 - Måndag den 6:e - MY JOURNEY

 


Much better time of the year.



Today'a Name Day:  Vilhelm, William
Mom had an Uncle Manny whose real name was Vilhelm. He changed it to William.  (William is my son's name.)  Willie was actually Earl William.

    Had a so-so day.  Throat only hurts really bad when I cough or swallow, not between coughs.
    Today is a sad anniversary.  Today my family ceased to be.  Not my choice.  But for my own physical safety I had no other choice.  We almost had to call the law but I chose not to.  Should have.  Miss my grandchildren.  I am sure they only know bad things about me.
    Weather was ok.  I was mostly inside.  Don't care about the weather anymore.  I hate Kansas weather.  It won't be better for months.  Had moderate winds.  Few clouds.
    I went out to feed Miss Kitty.  She was no where to be seen.  I but looked in an empty box on the porch.  All 6 kittens were snuggled in it!!  No way to get a photo but I wish I could have.  I wonder if she put them there & told them to STAY!!!  Good mom!
    After cutting out that one food I like that I decided it was making my stomach sick  I have had no problems.  Good to know.
    After lunch I fed Miss Kitty.  She was there then.  And the kittens had scattered.
    Took a very short nap.  Had a nice nap about me & a friend & an uncle & aunt.  Nothing special, just nice.  Only people I have "seen" in the last week.  Only "see" one friend on FB.  No one else keeps in touch.
    When I woke up I went outside for a while.  Miss Kitty came to eat & we bonded a bit.  She is sweet.
    I now know that no one has time for me.  I will expect nothing anymore.  Every one has more to do than anything to help me.  I will only see if KN can help me this week.  Won't ask anyone else.  Could ask MS but she works hard & I do not want her to see my house.  How awful it is.  No more whining on my part.  No one cares how I feel anyway.
    I wanted some more cattle photos but not a cow or llama insight.  Dang.  They were too far south.
    Rain is forecast for next week,  My one weather app has tons of rain forecast for over a week starting next weekend.  Even the weather men agree.  Scary.  The drought is creeping further & further to the north.  No quite here yet.  Yet.
    Kids did not nap with me.  Kind of stayed close though.  Now that I am busy Cinder is begging for food.  There is still dry food.  She will live.
    I down loaded some photos while outside but they have not synched yet.  Dang.
    I down loaded an upgraded operating systems on my laptop last night & on my iphone today.  
    I hope to work on wednesday but depends on my cough.  Had a bad coughing spell today.  Do not want to be at work & coughing the entire time.  Not working at  all on friday.  Taking a vacation day.  Like I have vacation days!!!
    Photos are a mix, like usual.  Some old some new.

Saw this in Ellis Kansas after we had stopped for coffee.  Had to have photos!  Years ago.

Coronado Heights.

Snowy Lindsborg

My favorite golfer

Oso & I.  Lord I miss him.  Where is he when I need him.. He is also too busy for me now.


My drive way in the snow,















Great grandsons this Easter


When I miss & need him the mostb but he is not here.






















                                                              











             
   



Friday, March 27, 2026

3/2026 - Fredag den 27:e - MY JOURNEY




I am not in a spring mood but I am always in a poppy mood.  Have to see in they are blooming yet.


Today's Name Day:  Ralf,  Rudolf
Known one local Rudolf.

    Not a good day.  Little sleep due to severe cramps in my feet.  Right one is always worse.  I have a pharmacy full of lotions, creams, liquids for helping to prevent them.  They all failed last night.  Had trouble walking.  Cancelled the entire day.  I just rested.  Mid afternoon it was resolved.  Finally.
    Much cooler today.  It is 59 now.  Probably our high.  I felt cold overnight.  My feet are cold often when I go to bed.  I put on sock & pulled my weighted blanket.  Both helped.
    Strong winds here again with a fire warning,  Same for tomorrow.
    Emailing JL today.  I enjoying being connected to her.  Had one comment from MM.  About him, not me.
    I got sort of upset last night.  MM shared a photo of him & another friend.  I miss them both but they do not have much time, if any, for me.  Made me cry.  Still feeling left out.  Being alone is not easy or healthy.
    Pictures are all from different artists.  Names are posted.  And photos from a trip to Yoder KS.  It is an Amish town with the best restaurant.  I am dying to go there again.  LL is always busy & JR always tired.  Oh well.


















Yoder KS

Yoder KS.  An Amish town.  They do not drive cars, only horse & buggies.  And they make buggies there in town.  One shop in town has all the old old toys but they are newly produced.  And more than toys.

Yoder KS.  My meal there was a hot beef sandwich.

Yoder KS.  My dessert was pie.  Lemon cream pie.  Willie's favorite.  It was yummy.

Yoder KS. 

Yoder KS. 

Yoder KS.   The restaurant.

Yoder KS. 

My grandparents.  Mimi & Boppa.  That is what I called them. She died when I was 3 years old.  Once she was gone the younger grandkids renamed them. Only Mimi & Boppa to me. 😞


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9/2026 -Tuesday the 8th - MY JOURNEY

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