05/2025 Tisdag the 20th - Wandering & Capturing Moments

 

MI took the bridge from a photo & added it to another photos with a rainbow.  Fun to play!

Today's Name Day:  Carola, Karolina

Carola is the name of a Swedish singer I love.  Awesome voice & songs.  She sings a couple I want played at my funeral.  Guess I better tell someone.  Plus I worked with a Caroline at the Mill.  Has since moved away.  Miss her.

    Had a great day!!  Finally out of the house.  Met grandson CF for a goodbye lunch before he moves out of state.  I have been in a major depression for 2 days.  Will only get worse when he actually leaves.  I feel today is the last time I will ever see him.  He won't be back & I cannot travel alone.  Sad day for me.

    My depression just gets worse.  I see people having things I miss.  Family get togethers,  friends who want to include me for eating/movies/etc.,  support from family/friends who can help or assist me if needed without me asking/begging.  Not there for me.  CF planned to help me with things but now he is leaving.  He should do what he needs to for his happiness.  I am ok with that.  I am not ok that I am always left alone with nothing.  And I know, no one cares.  So I will shut up.

    I got a photo of a cool mother & baby cow.  Cool color.

    I was chilly all day.  At home, eating, napping.  My blankets sure felt good.  We had a bit of rain last night.  And lightly rained until 3 or 4am.  More rain coming on friday.

    Working tomorrow.  It is about time!!! Excited to see everyone!!  Been far too long away!!!

    Today was a special day.  Junior graduated from Kindergarten.  Cool.  Growing too fast!!!

    I guess CF's truck & camper will leave this week.  I have threatened to take legal action if it does not.  I am not related to them & if they would get damaged in a storm or something, I do not want to pay insurance to them.  Be nice not to have to look at them.

    Next weekend is Memorial Day.  Have graves to decorate.  And not much time.  Rain forecast & working.  Saturday it is.  Hope I ordered enough.  I always order.  Feels like I always do everything.  And if I have to decorate alone, so be it.  I usually do not have to that but life is not being nice to me lately.

    Photos are a mix.

Photos I played with.

Willie moving equipment.  Miss those times.  Now I  am needed for nothing.

Neighbour's barn.  My favorite.

Nice memories.  Miss them.

I. Need!!!!!!

05/2025 Torsdag the 15th - Wandering & Capturing Moments

 

Today's Name Day:  Sofia, Sonja

I have known several of both these names.

    I was so hopeful after last night.  Blood sugar stayed normal.  But this afternoon it is far too low.  Eating does not help.  It just sits at a low reading.  And I am tired of eating.  Wrote to my doc.  I give up.  Will cancel tomorrow.  And saturday.  Losing hope.  😖

    Not as hot today.  It is in the mid 80s.   At least the humidity is around 20%.  I sat outside this morning.  Nice breeze.  No cattle or llamas anywhere near.  Took one photo outside but nothing special.

    Minimum texting.  I am sure people are tired of my pathetic life.

    Almost suppertime.  Nothing sounds good.  I have some frozen Mexican food.  Easy to fix.

    Photos are drawings & 2 autumn/winter photos.

05/2025 Tisdag the 12th - Wandering & Capturing Moments

 

Today's Name Day:  Charlotta, Lotta

I have known several Charlottes, one a cousin to me.

    Today was ok. Too warm.  I saw 84.  AC on all day!  Did not forget today!!!  House feels ok.

    Tomorrow is trash day.  Sooo I forced myself to go outside to put trash in the first bin & some boxes in the second bin.  Trash bags far too heavy.  Someone close has offered to come help next time.  I have a couple of heavy boxes he can move also when I have him here,  Both the bins had water in them so when I opened them there were bugs that flew out.  Yikes!!  I got a bug spray & soaked them both.  Not sure what they were.  Did not look like mosquitoes,  Who knows.  Trash men will leave them open & then I have to hope they leave my straps where I can find them.  Once in a while they will lay them on top but that is rare.  Typical Americans ---- never thinking of anyone else.  Now that I am done I see 2 more bags.  They can wait until tomorrow.  Not going out again.

    Lunch tomorrow with MM,  Have not seen him lately.  We need to talk.  He sent photos of him & Junior.  Warms my heart.

    Tomorrow night is the historical group that without my knowledge fired me from being secretary.  I will feel odd there knowing only one of them cares about me.  I will be there but keep quiet.  The program is a good one I do not want to miss.  How can someone just take your job without at least asking if it is ok?  Rude & hateful.  Anymore such treatment I will quit.  Screw them.

    Today is JS's birthday.  I sure miss him.  We texted each other.  When he lived here we made sure that birthdays & Christmas were special.  We gave gifts, cards, maybe a meal.  Sometimes he would buy mine at Jalisco's.  Now I only get a few personal greetings & never a gift or meal.  I try not to eat out on my birthday.  Not right to have to buy my own meal.  Better to do without.  Or plan something just for me.  And today is after an awful sunday.  Hope tomorrow is less painful.

    I was sent a photo of sweet new calf of ours,  And an odd color.  Lovely.  Nice to be included.

    Weather sucks this week.  All 80s & one 90 day.  Not a chance of rain, only dust & more dust.

Slight chance of rain this weekend.  Believe it when & if I see it.

    Photos today are all flowers.  I took most of them.