09/2025 - Jueves the 25th - MY JOURNEY

 

Today's Name Day:   Gerhard, Gert

My one great uncle had a middle name of Gerhard.  Have a friend in Sweden who is named Gert.  Maybe middle name is Anne.

    Sorry for no blog last night.  I was hurt emotionally after supper.  Took me by surprise.  Family info I had no business knowing.  And told how someone was thrilled about my not being family anymore.  I am sure I will survive & calm down.  But for now I have cut someone out of my life for a few days.

    Then last night a friend & almost family texted me many times.  Nothing important.  Me & my heart needed to be cared for.  He was perfect.

    Had lunch at the Öl Stuga.  MM was bartending.  I got to meet one bartender I knew of & one who is new,  Both very nice.  Good time.

    I worked at the Old Mill in the afternoon.  I kept busy.  And the three of us working were silly a few times.  Best coworkers!!!

    Supper was at Jalisco's.  So good to see everyone.  I had been gone for so long the one kitchen help did not even see me!  But he when he did we talked.  Supper was good.  I had carnitas.  Excellent.  Then ice cream at the Barnyard Creamery.

    Then there I got slammed.  Info about my parents I had no clue about.  No idea how they felt about me back then.  And the truth of someone else how he felt about me.  All painful.  Being made fun of & no apology.  FML.

    At home in tears a good friend started texting me.  Not saying anything special.  He is going out of state until next week and just texting.  He is such a good person.  I am always surprised when someone likes/loves me.  He feels like family to me.  Maybe he will miss me also.  But just some non-important texts healed my heart.  I told him today.  💓

    MM is going to help me with several projects.  Supposedly we are not related by blood but he is much better than local aunts/cousins/etc.  There is one project he is doing to make sure I don't get charged many hundreds of dollars again over something being done wrong.  I do not care who gets upset.  If you cared at all it would have taken care of weeks ago.  My bedroom window is getting fixed & boxes will be moved.  No charge to me.

    No rain forecast for here until October.  Then some is coming.  Until then temps around 80.  October temps in the 70s,

    Autumn is here.  I keep my AC set at a certain temp.  But it is now too cool.  I was so chilled last night.  I can tell when Kisse is cold also.  I set the temp warmer.  Her napping photo shows she is comfy today.

    Had to delay my Great Bend trip for a few days.  No problem.

    Fotos are a mix. from yesterday.

   

Burger for lunch.

You can see MM cooking here,

Old Mill fotos before work.

1956,

Me on someone's birthday.  I can guarantee it was not my birthday,  Either one of my kids or Willie.  I never was remembered on my birthday.

Old fotos of me in 1956.  Probably around Easter.

Winter fotos.

Oh, the dreams of fools................

A winter pin I have ready to wear.

                                                           

01/2025 Lördag the 25th - Wandering & Capturing Moments

 

Today's Name Day:  Pål, Paul

    Had another quiet day.  Cool & dry.  Texts from JR & MM.  News that my daughter went to another state to visit her son, my grandson.  Lucky her.  I have made peace with the fact I most likely will never see him again or hear any kind words from him in my life again.  His choice.  I have tried.  There are things I need to have settled with him but not sure how.  Maybe need to talk to my lawyer.  One step at a time.  One thing to be hateful but not to take advantage of me.

    He posted one photo of them all so I can see what they all look like.  Some changes but none for the better.  Save it for genealogy.

    I was out briefly but did nothing outside.  Too cold.

    Slept pretty well.  Was awake for awhile middle of the night.  Pretty normal.  Some back pain probably from the cold front that arrived overnight.  Better today.

    Cinder did not nap with me until I woke up.  Then she laid on my chest.  She & Kisse are so used to napping together.  That is good for them.

    Photos are all free from a special site & all are about snow.

                            

01/2025 Onsdag the 22h - Wandering & Capturing Moments

 

Today's Name Day:  Viktor, Vincent

    It was a bit warmer overnight & today.  Today was a work day but due to an extreme anxiety attack yesterday I stayed home.  If something feels wrong then don't do it.  Feeling lots of guilt but no anxiety.  I rarely have this kind of anxiety but think it is caused from being pretty sure of losing my grandson, being removed from being part of a historical board (before our board meeting, during it & after it) without them letting me know,  homebound too many days, lack of social contact, 45 inauguration, etc.  I think all of that together has done me in.  It is awful.  I am not a happy about how I feel.  I am trying to focus on pleasant things.  Cannot change family or a board group or the weather.

    Had a tiny moment of snow when woke up from my nap.  I saw a few flakes fall & some on my trash bins.

    Went to the mailbox.  It was crammed full..  Hope nothing is broken.  It is amazing.

    When I went to go to my car there was a sweet little possum curled by my front door.  Maybe a little warm air escapes under it.  She just walked away.

    I thought of eating out tonight but just did not care to get ready to go.  Will be in Salina tomorrow & can at least eat in my car or bring something home.  Then work on friday,  Ready for my normal life again.

    I fed the cats but no one is hungry.  Odd.  Cinder is curled by me cleaning herself.  No Kisse here.  Last night she curled up next to me in bed.  When I turned my phone off & the light out then Cinder came to cuddle.  We have a routine.

    The weather man just loves announcing how many days until spring.  I do not want spring,  I like winter.  He adds to my anxiety.  Hate the thought of heat, humidity, bugs.  Usch.

    Photos are seasonal.

                            

    

01/2025 Onsdag the 01st - Wandering & Capturing Moments

Today's Name Day:  No name today.

    Sort of busy today.  I slept late but was cold whenever I got up.  No wonder.  I saw 17F last night.  Yikes!!  The high today was  42F.  Feels really cold outside.

    Last night I found a way to remove the water from my old ice maker.  Too heavy for me to try to move it to the sink to drain.  But my mini cans of Coke were perfect.  Got almost all the water out.  Not heavy then.  I got it moved to my kitchen chair last night then,  This morning I carried it to the porch.

    KN texted me he was coming over today with his pasture rent check.  Before lunch the old ice maker went to the porch.  A gift to KN so he can remove for me.

    Lunch was mac & cheese.  Salted it this time.  Much a better.  Wonder what a little garlic salt would do???

    I did some work on my laptop & my Remarkable2.  Change in years means I had some changes to make on both.  Think all is ok now.

    Before KN came here I hooked up the new ice maker.  I read the instructions several times.  It sounded too easy.  So I added water, plugged it in, & walked away.  Soon I heard ice being made.  Love it,

    Cinder has cuddled with me on the sofa.  Kisse is napping somewhere,

    Got my check from KN.  I might have plans for it,  Will see.

    So so sad about New Orleans.  What is wrong with people?  Is it education or lack of it, military training, politics, nutrition, emotional problems or what???  So scary.  So sad for people.

    Still sounds like a winter storm is on the way.  One weather app gave us here 5 inches on sunday,  Time will tell.  My camera & I are ready!!   I am planning on staying home all weekend,  Will eat out on friday.  And tomorrow noon with friends.

    In a better mood than last night.  Not crying today.  Good.  Only one person has upset me & that was a few days ago.  I would never treat someone like I was treated..

    Photos are a mix.