8/2026 - Sunday the 9th - MY JOURNEY

 

Today's Name Day:  Silvia , Sylvia

Mom had a good friend for years named Sylvia. And her daughter was a couple of years older than me.  This is also the Swedish queen's Name Day.  (got mixed up.  yesterday's names)

    Today is miserable heat.  Now is 1pm & it is 106.8F.  And feels awful outside.  Just fed Daisy.  Sat out for a while.  I feel guilty leaving her outside.  Wish I trusted Cinder & Kisse.  Not sure I do.  She can go under the house to cool off.  Super cold this winter I may change my mind.

    Sent out 3 messages a couple of nights ago.  Two never answered,  Why am I being ignored???  Has to be something wrong with me.

    I am in a better mood. No tears yet but no promises.  Waiting on someone for them to interact with me.  I bet I never hear today.  Nap then out to eat.  No idea where.  Poor day to eat out.  Everything is closed.  Awful.  Not sure I can go to Pizza Hut after they hurt some one I care about.  His stress is worse than mine.  Wish I could help.

    I have decided that I just cannot drive to an out town doctor when it is 106+F outside.  Wish I had someone I could ask for help,  Nice dream.  Everyone has lives other than with me.  I only have me.  No support group.  Almost everyone I know has a friend or two.  Why not me???

    Done for today.

Miss them

                                                                                

          

07/2026 - Friday the 24th - MY JOURNEY

 

Today's Name Day;  Kristina , Kerstin

I had cousins with these names.  Love them both.  especially how Kerstin is pronounced.

    Today was a so-so day.  Or in Spanish más o menos.  Slept ok.  Stress is over whelming.  As is depression.

    Had on odd morning.  My phone rang at 9am.  The hospital.  But  I was not with my phone.  No message left so I called them back,  I finally talked to a nurse & she knew what it could be & who.  There is a test Dr. Baxa wanted on bone density or something like that.  The nurse got me to who did that test.  I told her my name & being a patient of Dr. Baxa.  She heard my name & hung up.  I called back to leave her my phone number.  Now for the rest of the day everytime I got a text I checked.  Not helping my stress.  Someone could have explained why no one wanted to talk to me.  Either the schedule it or they don't.  Will call next week again.

    Warmer today.  In the 90s.  Had a brief shower early morning.  Now there is no chance for rain for a week & a half.  But really humid here today.  And a few days of extremely hot.  

    I planned to eat supper out but woke up from my nap sick to my stomach.  Probably what I ate for lunch.

    Had an email from JL & a photo or two from MM.  And saw a good friend is flying to Denver.  I can only dream.  Wish there was a local uber driver who could take me to Wichita.. HA.

    I rarely  watch CH 12 but mostly CH 10.  I really like their weather man.  But today is his last day.  Moving back to Austin, Texas.  I will miss him.  Wish him luck.  Going to be in charge of a station there & their entire weather department.

    That my day.  Nothing fun.  No caring.  Sigh.

Me as a baby.  When I was happy.

4 generation photo. If only my grandma Mimi had lived.  Would have made a difference to have someone support me.

I think it was either a photo taken at Easter or my 6th grade graduation.  I remember that the dress was green checks with lace.  I do not look happy.  Childhood was difficult for me.  All family locally had nothing to do iwth me.  I could not please my parents.  Will stop there.

Me & Daisy