Showing posts with label hurt. Show all posts
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Saturday, October 28, 2023

28 october, 2023 Wandering & Capturing Moments

 


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Today's Name Day is Simon

    Cold, quiet, mucho stress, tears. Feeling invisible.  And I moved things that Nico is attracted to.  One problem gone.
    Slept pretty good last night.  And it sure got cold.  I saw 28F.  Nice.  I have some Pepsi on the porch.  Nice & cold!!  Our high was 38F.  Perfect!
    I tried very hard last night to give Nico his insulin.  And to get his mask on.  After all that work all I got is bit & bled again.  I want an appointment with our vet.  Nico cannot be the only dog the world who for one reason or another cannot or will not take his insulin.  If she blows me off, I am looking for a new vet.  Tired of being ignored & invisible.  Like no one cares.
    I tried to take a nap.  Perfect day but did not happen.  For some reason a memory of a fun wedding celebration came to me.  All the fun & the friends.  I remembered a friend walking me to my car & bringing me a piece of cake to take with me.  And a super goodbye hug.  Then I lay there & cried.  And cried.  I get no invites anymore like that.  I miss the fun times.  They are no more.  And I miss the friends.  But do they miss me???  ðŸ˜¥
    I got up & did some cleaning instead.  Nico stayed behind the baby gate.  He supervised.  Haha!
    I had supper planned but then I was too tired.  Same ole, same ole.  Just me so no one to care.
    Mid to late afternoon we had sleet or ice pellets.  I could see & hear them.  Then rain.  Maybe misting now.
    Tomorrow depends on the roads if they are icy or not.
    Once of my apps that I used daily is gone.  It is not offered in my country.  Why could it not stay if I had it?  Stupidity.  But I have created a way to do the same thing in my own way.  It is good.
    Photos today are from one of my favorite sites.  It is called Cozy on FB.
  Oh, to live like their photos!!
                    










Friday, April 29, 2022

29 april, 2022 Wandering

    What a truly awful day.  I am trying to be positive & not whine but today is special.  And not in a good way.

    Started when me & an immovable thing met.  Won't say more but it was an awful moment added to my pains.  No bothering anyone.  Only my problem.

    Tried to nap but could not sleep.  Too sad.

    Had strong storms forecast.  The radar was so hopeful looking.  As usual it all went north then east.  As usual.  We missed any rain.

    But now there are several tornadoes south of here around Wichita KS.  Plus one was seen east of us here in Dickenson Co.  There was a photo of that one.  TV is nothing but storms.

    Met JR & PM for supper.  It was a wild house!!  Many people in to eat and the phone never stopped ringing.  I felt sorry for JS and our new guy E.  Do not know his last name.  They were running.  JS apologised.  No need.  I expect nothing special.  It was only the 2 of them working out front.

    On the way home I stopped for photos of clouds.  They were awesome but then the further north I went I saw lots of dust blowing everywhere.  And it got hard to see to drive.  Scary.  And my mood was really bad & cried the entire way home.

    After I got in the house we got a Dust Storm Warning.  That is a first.  Never seen that before.  My iWatch had a huge yellow warning sign.  That is another first.  The wind was at least 60-70 mph.  My house jiggles with winds over 50-70 mph.  Tonite it moved more than usual.  I am terrified.  I heard something hit my house but have not looked to see what it was.  Don't care now.

    I have never liked being alone during storms but now there is no option.  I always felt better when Willie (husband) got home.  No one to be with me here.  I am sooo scared.  The winds seems less which is helping.  Warning goes until 9pm.  That is in 15 minutes.  I am still crying.  And extra pain from earlier today.  What a damn day.  Should have stayed home tonight.  I do not belong anywhere & do not fit in anywhere.

    Photos are just clouds.

                        








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