29 april, 2023 Wandering & Capturing Moments

    I am just sad today.  I knew that I would never be part of my granddaughter's family forever, but I miss them.  And I miss her.  But they have real family & no time for me.  She got nice weather for her wedding.  I will survive.  Wish her happiness & just to have one wedding not a string of them. 

    Sort of a cool night last night but far too warm today.  I saw 82F here today.  Had a light breeze too.  Sat out several times with Nico.  Cinder was asleep.  She is out now & turned down an invitation to come in.

    There is a crack in the cement of my carport.  I have antlions that live there.  They fascinate me.  They burrow backwards into the ground to make a funnel type trap in the dirt.  They lay in wait there for for ants, etc. to fall into it.  And then they are eaten.  Found a few great vidoes.  Glad they are tiny & harmless to pets & people!!  I like to watch & see how many there are.  The most I have seen is 5.  I actually saw one funnel being built today.  Very cool.  They only live for 25 days.  Obviously I need to get a life!!

    Took a nice nap & felt exhausted tonight.  So took another one.  Probably wedding blues.  My Swedish genes will help me survive.

    The farm is sure lonesome here.  Most of the cattle & calves have gone to pasture for the summer.  How I miss them.  Little ones are so fun to watch play.  Hope there is enough grass to eat in our drought.

    Our niece shared a video being on top of the hill in Willie's pasture.  I remember being there but years ago.  When his mind went he quit taking me anywhere for any reason.  But I remember.  Those days are over.  I will never be there again.  So glad I sold the farm to our nephew.  He will make our name one to be proud of.  Great guy!

    I went to Salina for groceries at Dillons.  They are the best.  Worth the drive.  Just hate carrying it all in!!  Soo heavy!!

    Tomorrow is May Day.  As a kid I remember making little baskets of flowers & hanging on our neighbour's door.  I do not every remember getting a May basket as a kid or adult.  I maybe did but have no recollection of it.  A cool thing to do.

    Photos are some I took.

                    

    

Wandering Through Life, 28 july, 2021

                  Always be kind. Wear a mask if needed. Avoid toxic people and situations. The Delta Variant is starting to grow here fast. And with my luck someone who refuses to get vaccinated with be fine but me with both shots, will get sick. God love luck!

        Weather here at the Saraha Desert West was hot and humid. I saw 100F and will be worse tomorrow. A delight to take Nico outside. Or dash to the car.

        I still do not feel good. My blood sugar is a mess. Stays too high. My throat is scratchy so maybe I am trying to be sick. Worries me. Then my best friend is ill and I am very worried about him. Taking him to the doctor tomorrow.

        My depression is worse, of course. Sometimes I feel that life is only for others. Never me Part of it is losing a friend without one word, Sucks. Guess I was just used until no longer needed.

        I have started buying candles to burn daily. Helps calm me. And at certain times during the month I burn one and do intentions. I just received some mini candles I ordered. Awesome!! Great smells!

                        Photos are from Fairbury Nebraska. I like it there, Hope I am invited back sometime but will not hold my breath. Lost too many friends this year. I can go alone if needed. Other photos are from today.