6/2026 - Friday the 12th - MY JOURNEY

 

Today's Name Day:  Eskil

I had one friend named Eskil from Sweden.  He was at the college for a couple of months.  He was a composer, performer, leader of the Stockholm opera & orchestra.  We took a bus trip together.  He sat with me.  When I was in Sweden he told me to call to say hi.  I did.  He died later than year in surgery.  He was the best.  I was lucky to know him a little.

    Today was a good day.  Had a project at work that I finished today.  Glad it is over.  Came out perfect.  I also had 2 huge pictures to scan.  Learned that I can't edit them like all the others.  Easy to figure out though.

    I am working on the last bunch of photos of people & families.  But I swear there is easily a thousand photos to work on.  Yikes!!!  Have work life figured out for a while!

    Supper was at Jalisco's.  I had a phone call from Mexico to tell MA about.  And he had a map to show me & figure out where my house is.

    New young man was working tonight.  I asked who he was.  MA said I already knew him.  Oh my!!  It was MA's son but with blond hair!!!  Sure made him laugh.  Me too.  He looks good. AH came out to say hi twice.  Good to see MS.  And the two cooks came out also.  The one has always called me his aunt.  I tease him & call him my aunt also!!!  I am mean!!!  Good meal.

    I asked for a small portion of rice with an egg that was partially runny.  It was perfect.  Great cooks!!

    Drove around town a bit after supper.  JR never knew where our dad's brother lived & the former owner of the Stuga.  They were neighbours.  Now he knows.  And we got to see lots of tree damage.  Some truly awful scenes.  And one house with some sad damage.  Fixable though.

    I cannot get the internet at home.  Driving me crazy.  I have rebooted my wifi many times. Something is wrong some where.  Verizon, phone company, storm problems.  Super tired of it.  It worked for one day then gone.  Grrrr.

    No storms tonight.  Great.  And probably not tomorrow either.  Maybe.

MM & kids.  A few years ago.

Harvest.  The field across from my house was ours for many years,  Friends started cutting wheat there today.  Makes me so sad to hear & see.

Willie

Willie.

Pets

Play area in Swensson Park

Play area in Swensson Park

Stuga

Mural since painted over.  Love this one.

Makes me so sad.  I no longer have fun times or travel times.  No one to help or care.

Willie's grave with his nephew who shares his birthday.  His best friend drinking a beer on his grave.  I am sure he knew.

                                                                              

               

01/2026 - Söndag den 25:e - MY JOURNEY

 

Today's Name Day:  Pål,  Paul

Grew up with a Paul.  He was the best.  As kids we got married under the blooming apple tree!  Had a cousin Paul.  Great sense of humour but super conservative.  Several Pauls in town.

    Had a good night.  Ate a couple of times but slept good.  I saw for a low here -11F.  Cold!!!  And I saw that Salina had almost 8 inches of snow.  It is pretty deep out here.  Doesn't look so bad until you start to shovel or blade the driveway off.  Super deep.

    When I got up my weather apps showed it was -11F here but the indoor/outdoor temp showed 19F.  No way.  Looked on my porch at an old temp hanging there & it showed -8F.  Sun is reflecting off the house or snow or something.

    KN & CN came after lunch to clean my drive way off.  CN was shoveling around my car & on my porch.  Many new animal prints today.  Large ones around my car.  Large ones around my back door.  And huge ones around the yard there by the back door.  Need to have a camera here & there so I can see what is here.  Scary to think.  That is why my cats are inside pets only.

    I had planned on eating in town today but just too cold.  And living alone I am scared to drive around alone.  Those who think I am stupid have nice support groups that I do not have.

    I learned a new term that fits me perfectly.  It is "FOMO".  Means 'afraid of missing out".   And I am.  Seeing dozens of photos of groups of people enjoying life & having fun & socializing really hurt.  I am not part of any thing.  I barely get a text during the day.  Let alone an invite.  The article I read said to find things to do at home alone that I enjoy..  I do try.  No choice.  And it is obvious how few people care or like me.

    I saw the cattle at the pond again.  They have water at KN's house but the pond is like their "favourite bar".  They prefer to drink there!!!  Took no photos today.  Too cold to be out.

    I did bring out a couple of trash bags that were in my way & CN put them in the trash for me.  Should have had a dozen sitting out!!!

    JS told me he would call me at  12 - 1pm to chat.  I knew he would get busy & not call me.  And I am correct.  I did not get excited.  I sent him a text early yesterday that he never read until 10pm.  He is always too busy for me.  He complains that I do not write him & then he worries.  I am going to send stuff often.  He can ignore as usual.

    Heard from a good friend in Brazil.  He went to Bethany College & played soccer there.  And he also played on a team in Wichita.  JR & I went to all the Wichita matches.  Fun times!!!  I miss him a lot..  Had a nice visit yesterday.  He does share a lot of photos of his family & soccer team there.  I need to share with him more often.

    I have been writing my deepest thoughts often.  Some are pretty negative.  Things I do not want to share with others.  And they do not want to hear me whine.  But not whining won't make anyone like me though.

    Got news a cousin in Kentucky is in ICU on a ventilater.  Not good.  She was such a beautiful girl.  But she is mentally unhealthy with age & some of her decisions have caught up with her.  She wants to die & very well might.  I am sorry for the stress her family is having.  She is older than me.  So sad.

    House is chilly.  My room heater was turned wrong sort of in a corner.  Moved  & hope that helps.

    Photos are nothing special.  Have to try harder tomorrow.