11/2024 Sõndag the 17th - Wandering & Capturing Moments

 

National Homemade Bread Day

My best friend in high school's mom was a baker.  It was a treat to go to her house after school just as the white bread was coming out of the oven.  Add butter & jelly!!!! What a treat!!  My mom only made Swedish rye bread.  Wish I had some now,

Today's Name Day: Naemi, Naima

    Today did not start out good.  Tried to get out of bed & bad pain everywhere in my body,  But after tons of pain cream & pain pills I am a little better.  But with the cold front approaching not sure it will last.

    I did make it outside for a bit.  Moved some boxes before the rain starts.  Chilly outside,  I like it.

    I turned on the tv after lunch & found a rugby match ----- France & the All Blacks from New Zealand.  NZ is my fave team.  Great match but France won by 1 point.

    TV pretty well sucked today so I watched several Dish Scapes.  Found one from Bryce Canyon.  Awesome place & awesome video.  Snow in the canyon.  Would love to go back there.  The one I am watching now is a Christmas living room.  There is a magic elf in it that moves to different places.  Fun.

    I got a new candle so I finally lit it today,  Nice fragrance.

    Worked on some genealogy.  I am actually keeping up.  That is good.

    Had a tiny shower over night.  Radar looked pretty good but did not do much here.  Nothing here yet.  After supper maybe.

    Today was SM 4th birthday.  I could not feel worse if I tried for missing it.  But I knew I just could not be there.  Sitting on the hard chairs would do me in.  I stayed quiet all day. And sat on my soft sofa.  Getting supper ready really hurts my back.  Hard kitchen chair  But I am missing being there.  I have been crying not that it helps.  KW sent me a lot of photos.  She is the best.  Love her a lot.

    Wanting food that I do not have here.  Oh well.  Another day maybe.  Not tomorrow.  Too rainy.  Maybe tuesday.

    Photos today are free ones of Christmas doors.

                        

11/2024 Lördag the 16th - Wandering & Capturing Moments

 

National Fast Food Day

I like some fast food.  Probably too much!!

Today's Name Day: Vibeke, Viveka

    Today again was not a good day.  Yesterday I felt so much better & slept painless all night.  But got up & pain again.  As much as I hate it, I am cancelling sunday.  All I can do is take care of myself.  There is no one to help me do that.  Or even just give me support when I need it.  Just me.

    Today is my great grandson's 4th birthday.  They are having a party tomorrow.  I want to go but I just cannot go.  I fear pain & leaving early.  FML as usual.

    The rest of sunday is cancelled also.  No eating out.  I barely have energy to do anything.  I am worn out from pain.  I am sure that no one understands or cares but it is my life.  Another FML.  I have no one to turn to for help.  I have a short list of things I want to do but not today or tomorrow.  I have one word for my pain & that is Fuck.  If offend anyone too bad.  You have no idea.

    Cinder has snuggled off & on.  And I noticed Cinder slept under my bed last night.  Kisse does that sometimes but rarely Cinder.  I would get up & sit on the bed to get prepared to walk.  Next thing I knew Cinder was behind me.  Hmmmm.  What would I do without my cats.  I would be lost.  No Willie, no kids, no one here but my cats.  🐈🐱

    Weather was warm & windy.  Rain starts sunday evening.  Do not want to be driving in heavy rain.  Did that the last rain.  Scary to drive when it is hard to see the road.  Not doing it again if I can avoid it.

    Photos are seasonal.

                    

Crown & Rye in town.

Old advertising for Swedish coffee in the Levin Store.  All way before my time.

Window in town.  Maybe the Swedish Country Inn.

Dalahäst & snow

Makes me smile.

Love barns & snow.

Kicking Dalahäst

Be fun to be part of this.  I can dream.

 

Sheltering in Place, Mood Of Silence, Day 291....

 I do not have it in me to blogg. I have thought about the past NYE and sort of have thoughts but will put those in my private papers. No one wants to read my thoughts. Hopefully I can blogg next week.

Sheltering in Place, Mood Of Silence, Day 249....

 I thought I was having a good day. But little did I know.

I did not sleep well. Pain returned. But ok this morning.

Nico had a vet appointment for trimming his nails. On the way there we had to pull off the road since we were meeting a 40' house! No problem. Nice looking house. His appointment went good.

THEN. We started home. Got to the same farm I had pulled into earlier. There was a very large combine approaching so I turned in the drive. BUT. I did not turn the steering wheel far enough. I ended up partially in the ditch. I cussed like a sailor. And the car would not move. The combine was my neighbors. But Kevin came back to check on me and said he had called for a truck to pull me out. Wow. I had tried to call my nephew but no answer. The man who lives in that farm helped too. I was so embarrassed. What an idiot I am. Kevin got me back on the road. And checked under my car and all is ok. My poor guardian angels. I have the best neighbors!

Photos today are some I have played with. Had an app I had sort of ignored. It was fun.

        

Sheltering in Place, Mood Of Silence, Day 248....

 It was so windy I almost filled a bag with rocks to hang on Nico to keep him on the ground!! Like a hurricane!! A bit less tonight but still blowing.

My uncle passed away this morning. I have tried very hard to focus on the positive and fun when I was  actually part of the family. I miss those times but that was a long time ago. I hope he is at peace.

JR and I went out for supper at Jalisco's. Slow night so time to chat and laugh with the wait staff. JS worries about me. Thinks I should not come in or be near him. I try to be safe. And I think he does also. I need a tiny bit of normalcy with care. I only go to there and my therapist. Groceries are put in my trunk. Or come in the mail.

Talked with my cousin for a while. We talked about my RA. She said I should not hurt so bad so early on. I do need to see my dr but hard to go to a city that has 500 cases daily of covid. I might call my doctor and just say I am hurting more and try another med. I want my hips xrayed to see if I have bursitis. But will do that when I go there. My hair stylist told me about a prescription cream for arthritis pain that is now sold over the counter. I ordered it and it came today. Seems ok. Will give it a chance. Now that my flare is over I feel more human. Probably do not look more human. But at least I try!! Too many others just do not give a shit.

Covid 19 just gets worse and worse. In my small county there are 8 disease pockets of covid. Scary. Our governor made an edict to the state today to wear masks. Last time she tried the male politicians stripped her of that power. I will not say more. Gritting my teeth. Should be a law we all wear a mask in public. Nationwide. There is no reason we all cannot wear a mask. One of the best ways to stop the Covid 19. Off my soap box. A friend in Ireland where the country is in lockdown. No one can go further than 3 miles from their home. Wear a mask.

Photos are mostly from today.

I hugged a tree and I like it!

At a nearby church. No clue.

Jalisco's

The moon. Not bad from an iPhone.

The moon from my iPhone. Different camera app. I just like it.

          

Sheltering in Place, Mood Of Silence, Day 247....

  Nice weather day. But tomorrow the howling winds return. Love it!! 

Got up early and made it to town for a burger before my therapy. What a joy to walk!! And not look awful. Jalisco's was kind of quiet so MA and I had time to chat a bit. Always nice. And I was lucky enough to get a sweet hug from JG.

Had therapy after lunch. It was good. Told her I had an epiphany about my RA. Then we talked about my kids Always a joyous conversation. It will never be good as long as they cannot be adults. But we talked and laughed and there were no tears.

JS called this evening. Nice to hear from him. Been a long time. We caught up a bit. I enjoyed the call.

I was just out with Nico. Near our yard there was a deer. It never went far. It watched us and heard me talk. So cool. I love having them around.

Texted tonight with a friend. Sweet friend. He said some things that made me think. And to dare to think of what I might want. But Will never have. No need to want, even if I have never had it. I have learned I rarely get what I want.

I worry about the holidays and friends and family. I am grateful there is no family that want to see me over they holidays. Better to be alone. Kansas is now in the Top 10 most dangerous states to visit. Our governor tried to have a mandate to protect us but the politicians in Topeka shot her down. Too many in the country do not care about others. 

Photos are mostly recent ones. Photo of a new book and a page from it that came today. A note from my UPS person. Thought I knew who it was but I was wrong. And 2 older photos --- a castle that was in my family a few generations ago and a building in another small town.