04/2026 - Torsdagen den 23:e - MY JOURNEY

 

Today's Name Day:  Göran , Georg

I know of several Görans in Sweden.  Have known a George or two here & one large family with the last name of George.  Knew all the kids.

    Today was an awesome day.  Slept extra good. Without meds!!  Cinder slept with me a couple of times.

    This morning Miss Kitty & all 6 kittens were there for drinks & food.  Loving them.  If they are eating I can touch a kitten or two.  All back for supper.

    Stayed too warm overnight.  I got up & the house was 77 inside.  Usch.  Already cooler out  It iw 65F now.  Nice.

    I had lunch with my thursday friends.  We met at the Öl Stuga.  After I parked a large group of ladies came out of the bar to get on the local bus.  All were nice.  Most had to hold on to my car to get down off the curb.  I went in & I actualy got a booth to sit in.  A miracle!!!  Nice for a change.  Good food & good conversation.

    Before my friends arrived a former class mate came in.  Reunion meeting today.  I had decided not to attend my reunion.  He asked me why.  I just said I have never felt part of my class after graduation.  Many of them are friends with each other but never me.  I hear from no one ever.  Then he just had to tell me that one of our class that no one has seen in 60 years will be there.  Dang.  Now I have to go.  I dated him once.  So I am going.  I cannot do a walk through of the school.  Cannot walk.  He made me feel really welcome.  A rare thing for former classmates.  Very rare.

    I never feel part of my town even.  Only at work.  Or Jalisco's.  No where else.  Wish I did. Not included in anything.  No invitations. 

    Severe weather warnings that all stayed east of me.  Good.  They can have it.  But poor western Kansas & the middle where I live we get no rain.  Drought is spreading really fast.  No bueno.  Need rain for our wheat.

    MM was quiet until I texted him.  One friend who keeps saying he misses me was with a mutual friend.  Wrote to our mutual friend to have him say hello since I never get to see him.  Really upsets me.  Words are cheap.  Damn cheap.

    Took many flower photos today.  Still too windy for the poppies.  Still pretty.  Flowers in the park too.  More coming later.  Photos are flowers or local things.

    Did not carry any trash.  Too sore, & weak.  Hopefully by next trash day.  Be nice is I had someone to help.  HA.  Like that will happen.  I am only good for giving not recieving.  Lots of giving.  Fuck my life.  No one cares.  I refuse to beg.

I got a postcard of this house from Amazon.  Wondered if it was still here,  And it is.  Not much has changed  Very cool.

Cool local house with a painting on the outside of it.  Love it,

Back of our local library,

Mural in the Swensson Park.  I edited it a lot.  Got rid of a couple of poles.

Statue in Swensson Park.  New.

Old old water fountain in Swensson.

Mural on building next to the Stuga.

Building behind my church.

Inside Öl Stuga

Inside Öl Stuga

Inside Öl Stuga

Visited Willie.  He needs new flowers.  I have some to replace these with.

                                                                       

                       

24 november, 2022 Wandering & Capturing Moments

    Had a good day.  Lots of memories floating around in my mind.  I am glad for all those who have a large group of family &/or friends for the holidays.  I do not begrudge them but am just sad of all I am missing that I used to have.  And I miss the me I used to be.  I will never be the same.  I lost Willie & that has really affected & changed me & my life.  I lost both of my kids plus 2 grandkids.  How & why I lost them is much worse than being without them.  Then 3 chronic diseases to deal with.  I miss family gatherings but that is life.  Things always change.  I almost cried once today but feel much better tonight.  I realise I am lucky just in different ways.

    I slept sort of well, just fell asleep late.  Tried to nap but woke up early.  But that was a good thing.  I got ready for supper & Nico & I sat outside with Cinder.  A nice moment I needed.  So did they.

    My brother, PM, & I ate at the Happy Swede that served a complete Thanksgiving meal.  My first photo is of it.  We all three agreed it was the best Thanksgiving meal we have ever had.  Perfect!  I had part of my food & part of JR's food to take home.  I will eat good this weekend!!  I am so thankful for those two men & just thinking of their friendship & spending the meal with them made me feel so good.  No more tears.  I do not need family that does not want me.  Their loss.

    There was a huge group in the next room.  No idea who they are.  They were there long before us & still there when we left.  They were all into a football game on the TV.  Fun!

    When I got home I shared a snack with Nico & Cinder.  Kisse does not like people food.  

    Lots of Christmas lights in town already.  Downtown is all white lights.  Time to capture photos.  I love Christmas lights.  I look forward to a special place in Salina.  Wish someone could drive me through.  I cannot take photos as there is too much traffic.  JR gets lots of good photos.  But I have no one to ask to drive me.  Willie used to drive us there.  Miss those times.

    Photos tonight are Thanksgiving photos.  None are mine except the first one.