Sheltering in Place, Mood Of Silence, Day 197....

Had a pretty good day. Slept ok later in the night. Nico was a problem early on. It got really cold last night. I saw 39F around 6am. Brrr. Great for sleeping. Now comes a slight warm up.

I spent time on the phone having trouble with my taxes. Very frustrating. I had a retirement account with someone local who retired without sending even an email. Sent my money to someone unknown to me in another state. I called him all day and finally got a return call around supper. Sheesh. What he told me did not match what I remember so who knows. He looked up on my account, he says.

Finally made it to therapy today. First time in a month. Lots to talk about. I had a worksheet we talked about. And we talked about my kids. There were things I believed to be true about several things but after much thought I have changed my mind. They knew exactly what they were doing to me and had it all planned. And they continue to not act as adults. Hard to talk about them but I managed to not cry. I really have no one else to talk to about them.

I treated myself to tea and pumpkin spice homemade ice cream and whipped cream at the White Peacock!! To die for!! I shared a photo of it with JS. Then he wanted some! I brought him vanilla. Kept the AC in the car on high hoping to stop some melting. And it just in time for his break!!

Tried to take a nap but barely slept but nice to rest.

Photos are a mix of old photos. I included my ice cream today. There is one photo of how a birthday is celebrated at Jalisco's.

   

Sheltering in Place, Mood Of Silence, Day 190....

Cannot blog much today. This is a special day in my family but thanks to those who do not want me to actually live my own life  have ruined it all. What fun today should have been. Why must family and life be so difficult. Feel like I am being punished. Enough said.

Photos today are not mine, have nothing to do with me, and are just calming and pleasant.

The Plague, Day 171....

Busy day but it was all good!!

Got up at the crack of dawn to make it to an early eye appointment. Surgical eye is healing. Other eye is ready for surgery. I am ready to see better.

Since I was in town early, I treated myself to breakfast at Wendy's. Had a biscuit, sausage, egg and cheese with potatoes. Very good.

The kids and I took a long nap. Very nice. I have figured out how to sleep at night. Working so far. Hope it keeps on.

JR and I ate supper at Jalisco's. It was really quiet there tonight. JS teased me about giving me a hug. So he sprayed his arm and shirt with germ killer. And I got my hug. Been months. He is very protective of me. He lectures me all the time to be careful around people. I avoid people who do not mask. Not scared, just careful. Especially since I am immune compromised. I have learned those who do not mask do not care at all about someone like me.

Weather was not bad today. Cool morning. Getting warmer but big cold front comes this weekend. They even mentioned snow. Whoo hoo!! Probably not here. Denver and some in western Kansas.

Pictures are old and new. The first ones are from an event last year at our Swedish group. Be fun to have times like that again. Then a couple from Jalisco's. Ending with Sunflowers in my drive and the sunset tonight.

    

The Plague, Day 164.....

Sort of a quiet day. I had planned on a friend joining me for lunch but it was not to be. No problem. I just missed the company and conversation.

Supper tonight with JR at Jalisco's. The salsa was extra good tonight. And so was my shrimp. Good conversation.

Before entering Jalisco's I saw a mask laying in the street. I have no idea how it got there but I picked it up and put it in the trash bin in front of my car. Might have been an accident. Might have been laziness. How many others walked by and ignored it? I touched nothing with my hand until I could sanitize it.

With my photos today of my former common life,  I want to give us all a moment to pause, think, and remember.

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To think about life before the pandemic. And what we miss. And want again.

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Time to grieve for our loss of a normal life, if we need to.

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And then to celebrate the past.

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I'll be honest, I miss gatherings. I love being around people whether I am just watching others or actually being part of them. An occasional day alone is OK and sometimes needed. But not more days at home than out. I long for just the normality of my past life.