07/2024 Tisdag the 02nd - Wandering & Capturing Moments

 

Family Day

    The photos in this collage were all taken today, except of course Nico.  The minute I got home Cinder came to lay on me purring & rubbing me with her paw.  Kisse was taken this morning when I woke up.  There are no words to say how much I miss Nico,  The pain never leaves me.

Today's Name Day: Rosa, Rosita

    Had a good & busy day.  Nice to be out & about.  Need to just go alone even if no one wants to go with me.  The open road is healing, whether early or late.

    I was up a bit early to do my hair & makeup.  And eat lunch early.  Cinder went out & back in before the heat hit.  Or stormy weather.

    Severe stormy weather west of Wichita & in Wichita all tonight around supper time here.  High winds with limbs falling down. Heavy rain & flooding.  Loss of electricity.  Traffic lights not working.  Calmer therev now.  Maybe severe storms here late tonight as storms move into Kansas from Colorado.

    I had a doctor's appointent in Hutchinson with my diabetic doctor.  After being gone for months he is finally back,  I prefer his PA.  She is super nice & acts like she cares.

     My one med is almost twice the cost than it was.  Up to $500 a month.  😱  That is awful.  They think it will go back down since this was probably the new year for my meds.  One would hope.  My PA , Sara, got paper work to get me cheaper meds.  Nice.  No other doctor has cared.  Or tried.  And starting me on a new drug to see if it helps my feet.  I feel better.  Nice when someone cares.  I know too many who do not care about me at all.  I get tired of being left out & ignored.  Especially just recently.  Not just left out & ignored, but nthen laughed at when actions hurt me.

    Driving to Hutch & back it rained every so often.  Not for long & not much.  The temp was at 99F or down to 88F in rain.  Really felt miserable out.

    The last time I was to that office it was really painful to walk from the car to the building to the office.  But using a cane is a life saver.  No pain at all.  Awesome.  Nice that life is a bit easier.

    On the way home I stopped in McPherson at Arby's to get something for supper.  Then I took a spin through the Lakeside Park & by the swimming pool.  Thank god I did not drive there a year ago.  I would have seen a large gathering of my family members that I did not know  were here for several days in McPherson & in Lindsborg.  What a shock.  If I had seen them I would have wrecked my car!!  I just recently found out they all gathered & did not include me. Or even tell me about their trip here.  Just made sure I saw photos from their time here.  And when I told them my feelings were hurt, I got laughed at.

    When I got home Cinder came to lay on my chest just for attention.  I think she missed me.  She is the best.

    I got the cutest photo of my nephew & great nephew.  I saved it, of course.  Nice that I am included sometimes.  Thanks to my daughter, she created some family difficulties there so I can not get included in holidays, etc.  I understand.  It is ok.  I manage to survive.

    Changing weather & I have increased pain.  Hurts to drive ---- sore hands & a sore leg.  I have adjusted in some way.  I rarely use pain cream anymore.  I have to really have bad pain.

    Photos are a mix again.  The magazine photos I edited in several ways.

                  

Only my editing

My photo

My photo of a Swedish Christmas candle holder.  It spins & makes chimes.

Magazine photo

Magazine photo

Magazine photo

My photos

06/2024 Fredag the 28th - Wandering & Capturing Moments

 

Veggie Beer Bread 

I did not like the selections for National Day so I looked at what they had & offered.  And chose recipes.  So I selected one.  Looks good.  Might try it!!

Today's Name Day: Leo

    Today I was supposed to work, but last night I had some severe vertigo.  Walked to bed with my head swirling.  Sitting down was no better.  Slept ok but woke up with the same vertigo.  I stayed home.  Sometime after lunch my head cleared.  Tried to nap but the Coke I was sipping on kept me awake.  Hope I sleep good tonight.    

    Hot again today.  I sawa 102F.  Ick.  Cooler for the next few days.  Super bad storms about an hour east of me.  Flooded one town & the heavy rains collapsed a building in their downtown.  Yikes.  Clouds were awesome to see.  We got nothing.  Maybe later or tomorrow.

   I had one really nice dream last night about being a nurse again.   Most of my nursing dreams are awful.  Bad times.   I rarely talk about those days.  I had a boss that bent over backwards to make my life miserable.  She succeeded.  I never figured out why she hated me.  We had student nurses who all at one time or another would talk to me in private to ask why she hated me but no one else.  I was one of the "lowly" nurses that the elite ones disliked & worked hard to not help us if they could help it.  But.  I loved my patients & their families.  And our interactions,  I tend to be a people person & they were all super nice.  Used to be fun to see one or two in town & hear the nicest comments from them.  Miss those times.  I miss many of the doctors.  There was one doctor that none of the other nurses liked.  I loved him & always made sure when he came on our floor I would make rounds with him.  No other nurse would give him the respect.  He sometimes would maybe say something inappropriate.  He did it to get a rise out of someone or another.  But I learned to just dish it back to him.  He also liked that.  We got along great.  People need to get over themselves.

    JR & I had Mexican for supper.  Our usual cook has been off for a while. Vacation???  But another waiter has taken over.  So I had to go back to say hi to him.  Had a nice chat & I got a very nice hug.  I have known him for many years.  Special.

    Dessert was at Tropical Sno.  I am addicted.  Wish they were open all year.  After dessert was groceries.  I was out.

    I have found a mail order meal plan.  Food looks awesome.  They have no contract required.  Order when you want.  Surely healthier than lunch meat so often.  Think I will try.  Food is not frozen although you can freeze them.  You can heat in the oven or microwave.  Might order a few tonight.

    Photos tonight are just photos I like.

                            

Nico sleeping with his head on my lap.  Sure miss him.

Statue in a local meditation garden at a local church.

Photo of a weed I took.

My family in Boana Sweden at their summer house. Getting ready for Midsommarsdag a few years ago.

06/2024 Torsdag the 20th - Wandering & Capturing Moments

 

Summer Solstice

Midsommarsdag

Today is a good day.  The days get shorter & each day is one day closer to Autumn & Winter.  And one day further away from heat & humidity. 😃

Today's Name Day: Linda

    Today is a mostly cheerful post.  Midsommarsdag.  It is celebrated on different dates depending on where you live.  Especially in the US.  Already is over in Lindsborg.  Never ever is celebrated on the real day unless it falls on a weekend.

     I got no sleep again last night.  Think the power drink before work & drinking Coke played a role in my being awake.  I napped a bit this morning & this afternoon.  Will I sleep tonight?  That is a crapshoot.

    Had a bad sneezing spell today.  Hope it is just allergies.  I do not want to be sick again.  MM & kids were all sick.  Then they all got well.  And by god they all got sick again.  I think they are improving again.

    Cinder napped with me today.  Always nice to have cuddles.  If she is somewhere else then Kisse stays near by.

    Hot again today.  It was at least 90F.  We had some rain overnight.  Did not amount to much but nice to see lightning, hear thunder, & see wet windows.  Always nice & so rare.

    I love it.  Someone tried to tell me they know exactly how it is to be alone.  Doubtful.  Did not gete any support only that they know my feelings.  They have 3 kids at home, a mother at home, friends, neighbours, a boyfriend.  They are not stuck in the middle of nowhere, with no kids, no parents, few family anywhere near, few friends.  They get to travel & I never get to anymore.  They were recently in the ocean.  I am not even close & never will be.  Always glad when people know how my life is.  Yeah right.  Glad they understand my life so well,  HA.  But I am lucky to have grandkids & great grandkids who love me, a boss I am close to, a close cousin, but I am still alone too often.  Maybe I need to see if I can volunteer a second day each week.  Will think about it

    Here is where to read about Midsommarsdag in Sweden.  Wish I could be there just once.

https://hejsweden.com/en/midsummer-in-sweden-how-swedes-celebrate-midsommar-tradition/

Was a pagan celebration & still is in many ways. Try to imagine doing the frog dance.  We do it here in town. I would end up in the hospital!!!

    Weather has nothing but 90+ days in the future.  Weatherman was all excited about one cooler day. It is to be 91F.  I will try not to get too excited! 😰

    All photos today are from Midsommarsdag.  Love them.

                            

This is from Minnesota

I took this in town sometime.

Now this is a super may pole!!! Yikes!!  We need to step it up in town!!

Common Swedish Midsommarsdag food.  Plus lots of alcohol!  And singing drinking songs.

06/2024 Måndag the 17th - Wandering & Capturing Moments

 

National Root Beer Day

Today's Name Day: Torborg, Torvald

    Today again did not go as I planned.  Not horrible just nothing worked out.  I was hoping last week was over & done.

    Supposed to meet my cousin fron Denver for lunch.  I was awake at 6am & checked my group & texts.  Had a text from her, ND.  Her family all left at 630am & that meant she had to leave but no where to go.  Certainly no lunch at 630.  She decided to go home then.  Will see her next time.

    I told JR we could eat supper out them.  But a family member upset me.  Not sure if it was intentional or not but I think it was.  And then my pain increased.  And I was extra tired again.  No supper.

    But no supper was ok.  Took my nap.  Cinder did not start out on my but I woke up later & she was curled up on my chest.  So nice.  It was a good trade off.

    Got hot again.  I saw 94F.  Usch. Plus winds up to 45mph.  Another usch.  And the winds are to get stronger over night,  And chance of rain starting tomorrow & bigger chance on wednesday.  Well everywhere except my farm.  Of course.

    KN & crew are on their last wheat field now. Wonder if they will get done tonight or tomorrow.  I never got any photos.  Saved some from SnapChat tonight.  Maybe next year.  Hope it was a good crop.

    Someone I know loves to post dozens of photos.  DOZENS.  But they are all OLD.  From 1 to 4 years old.  I know no one in them.  If they tried to show me who are kids, parents, etc. that would help.  But nary a name or clue.  I just ignore. A bit better than another friend who goes to concerts & then posts 200 photos at one time.  Ignore those too!!  Over whelming!!  Not insulting,  I have lots of photos I save online but they are only for me.  Sometimes for JR also.  I know one else would care.

    Photos today are all sketches that I loaded to an app I have & painted online.  Then did collages of them.  A couple of years ago they were done.  I liked using sketches or whatever I found online to paint.  Should do some again.  Better than what the app offers.

                            

06/2024 Söndag the 16th - Wandering & Capturing Moments

 

Father's Day

Father's Day falls on the third Sunday in the US in June to honor the role fathers play in the family structure and society. This day recognizes not just fathers, but the father figures in our lives. These are the men we look up to who set solid examples for us and guide us throughout our lives.

Today's Name Day: Axel, Axelina

    Had a so-so day.  Did not get beaten up today, having increased pain today, but I am still invisible to many.  My hip flared up again & both my upper arms ache bad & both hands really hurt too.  And no sleep until 5am.  And no tears today.  That is encouraging.  I did cancel supper.  Just too much pain.

    We were in a storm warning last night.  The radar looked so encouaging.  Big area.  BUT.  As usual. It grew smaller & smaller as it moved my way.  We had a huge amount of lightning as a way to play with my emotions.  Only one light thunder crash.  By the time it was at my farm, there was not any rain at all for me.  We stayed dry.  It all went north.  Of course.  No rain now until late tuesday & wednesday.  Should ignore what they say.

    Cinder was out all afternoon even though it was well over 90F.  Supper time she was ready to come in.  Napping now.

    Took my winter blanket off my bed & replaced it with something thinner.  Folded the winter one & put it on a chair.  Cinder has claimed it as her own.  Kisse has her own blanket.  We all slept in a close=circle.  They stay close to me usually.  Unconditional love is the best.

    Watching the Tony Awards.  I have no chance of ever seeing a Broadway play but I have heard of them & I enjoy the evening gowns.  And it is not so important to me I have to stop & watch.  My blog & spanish lessons take precedence. 

    Photos today are ones I have taken & edited.  And made me so frustrated.  I know what I wanted on one but could not find a proper app.  Grrrr.

                        

06/2024 Lördag the 15th - Wandering & Capturing Moments

Nature Photography Day 

How lucky.  All the photos I chose today are from nature & all taken & edited by me.  Finally I did something right.

Today's Name Day: Margit, Margot

    Today started out bad & went south from there.  Not a good day.

    Bought some magnesium skin spray.  I know my level is low as I get bad foot/leg cramps.  The second spray during the night knocked me out.  I have never slept so good!!!

    THEN.  I heard from family who were here last year but totally excluded me.  And he just cannot understand why I was devasted being excluded & having the photos without warning thrown at me.  And then laughing at how much fun they had 9 miles from me & nary a phone call or invite.  I give up.  I cried most of the day.  Èl no entiende.

    Then Cinder & I took a nap together.  She slept on my chest.  I just laid with my eyes closed.  Unconditional love is so special. Love her & I know she loves me.  So does Kisse.

    Got hot but not over 100F.  Then late afternoon it started to rain & thunder.  Temp dropped to the 60s.  But.  Bad timing.  In Lindsborg today was our Midsommarsdag celebration.  We never celebrate on the real day.  God forgid  The park cleared out but the evening dancing/singing/whatever is going on now.  JR is there with his camera.  I almost miss being there.  Almost.

    I have amongst my tears today had some nice support from several people.  Surprising.  Nice to read.  I must learn to just go on & forget that I am excluded from family.  Nothing new for me.  Hope I am done crying soon.  Rather have my sore throat back.

    It got sunny out so Cinder when out when I had supper.  Maybe she will enjoy her freedom.  And come when I call at bedtime!

    I actually got some laundry done today.  Maybe do more tomorrow if today's are dry.  The hallway gets a lots of air flow due to the AC being there.  Works good.  I rarely use my dryer.

    Our neice wrote that there is a second red cooler that Willie left at their house that they only use it & the blue one during harvest.  That way Willie is there for harvest.  I am positive he is there.  That was his life.  As she turned into a wheat field this afternoon while our great nephew opened the field up a song on the radio came on singing "wish you were here".  Said she lost it.  Reading that, so did I.  And writing this, so did I again.

    The one Willie photo if you notice the combine cab has wheat on the top of it.  Willie always did that.  Filled it too full & it would overflow.  Our great nephew always jokes about that!

    Had a fantastic announcement at the celebration today.  My co-worker said that the Kansas Dept. of Commerce has granted the Old Mill Museum a huge grant to repair our Swedish Pavilion.  We have had to close it as it has been tested & is structually unsound. Everytime we get high winds we just hold our breath hoping it does not collapse.  When I read that I cried again.  Happy happy tears!!!

    Photos today are all old harvest ones,  Willie's harvest, not the neighbours across the road.  And a flower or window one.