10/2025 - Viernes the 17th - MY JOURNEY

 

Willie's 84th birthday

Today's Name Day:  Antonia, Toini

I have known many with the name Tony or Toni, both here or in Sweden

    Challenging day for me.  I planned to work but woke up & started crying.  Today would have been Willie's 84th birthday.  Lots of memories.  Knowing his last years were awful being alcoholic & having dementia.  Did he even know who I was?  We never had the chance just to relax.  We missed out on having some good years.  So sad.

    Our nephew was born on Willie's birthday.  He was soooo thrilled. He beamed from ear to ear.  He always loved CN so much.  Great memories.

    I wrote to LL but got no answer.  She has far more important things going on than my life.  No big deal.  Hope she has a great weekend.

    MM has texted me several times.  And we texted when he got off work last night.  Said he had 3 drunken fights to deal with at work.  The life of a bartender.  I worry about him sometimes.

    Had a nice email from  JL..  She is busy with projects & better weather.

    Got no rain here overnight.  Maybe tonight?? The high is now 81F.  Light winds.  Cooler weather is on the way.  Hopefully the 80s are over for many months.  

    I did check out the Lindsborg website & they are streaming the festival.  I won't be watching.  Maybe the parade tomorrow. Maybe.  JR is in his height of glory, loving every minute.  Good for him.  As usual I am left out & watching others having fun.

    My mind worked overtime last night.  Photos of me as a baby/toddler being happy with happy parents & other family.  What did I do to end that happiness?  Even as a child.  Or someone else who stopped my happiness.  Cannot remember.  Those memories are blocked. I remember no happiness as a child except with the neighborhood kids & high school friends.  Then they all moved on without me.  I never dare to try to be part of groups of friends/family now.  I am far to used to rejection.  Want no more.

    Lunch has upset my stomach. And I barely ate anything.  Getting old.  Glad I am home.

    Photos today are a lot of Willie & memories.  And autumn ones.

   

                      

At our son's second wedding reception. What a mistake of a marriage!!!

My high school senior photo

Used to have joint celebrations but only for a couple of years,  Then not for Willie, just CN.

06/2025 - Martes the 17th - JOURNEY

 

No harvest today or the next few days.  These are old photos.

Today's Name Day:  Torborg, Torvald

Familiar with these names.

    Had a hell of a night last night.  My weather alarm radio was constantly sending alerts.  I had to get up to shut it off.  It is new & I am clueless.  I finally moved it to next to my bed.  Then played with it.  NOW it is set correctly.  I was awake until after 6am.  Did sleep this morning.  And this afternoon.

    Woke up around noon today & it was thundering then.  Thunder & rain now also.  Maybe get the storms done before bedtime.  And my electricity has been off three times.  Not for long.

    Bad storms in southern Kansas.  Hutchinson had a wind gust of 89mph.  And Wichita had a gust of 101mph.  That is the strongest in their history.

    Had winds here of around 40-50mph.  No damage.  So far around 2 inches of rain.

    Texted MM last evening.  I am so worried for him and his sons. He is working all week so I am going to try to see him often around my schedule.  Miss seeing him.

    Cooler today.  Good day.  Wish it would last.  Cool summer weather in Kansas??? Hahaha!!!  Oh, the dreams of fools........

    I texted with LL.  The river the Mill sits on is 6 feet higher today.  Wow!!!  Not seen it that high in a long time.  Small leaks in the Mill itself.

    No one texted today.  All busy.  Except for PR who used to work at Jalisco's.  His 6 year old daughter & I video chatted.  How sweet!!!  Made my day!!

    Photos are just some things I like.

Drinking glass by the sofa.

Photo of a flower I took.  Then printed it & painted it. Love it.

Midsommarstång

Favorite photo of Willie.  Celebrated his birthday at Pizza Hut.  Took his photo & a friend sitting behind him had to wave!!!

17 october, 2022 Wandering & Capturing Moments

    It really got cold last night.  Our first freeze of this winter season.  Our temps were 32F & 55F.  Sleeping was not bad but getting up the house was really cold. Took forever for my heater to warm us up. 

    Today would have been Willie's 81st birthday.  Our great grand nephew was born on his birthday.  Willie was so thrilled he beamed all day.  They even celebrated a couple times together.  I usually handle his birthday pretty well but today I did not.  A nice comment by our niece made me cry.  That is ok.  I even dreamed about Willie last night.

                                

    My propane company called me today.  They did not really want to come out & said they do not do anything to heating units.  But they sent someone out.  And lo & behold, they saw that I had no propane & the line going to my house was turned off.  The propane truck came & tried to fill my tank but it was apparent there was a bad leak under ground.  So they replaced a bunch of things & ran a new connection.  So nice to have heat in the house again!!  Especially tonight.  It is going to be around 26F.  Brrrr.

    I forced myself to wash my hair, in icy water.  But I had no choice!  See my stylist on thursday.  I just could not go to him with my hair such a mess.

    I rested this afternoon.  No sleep.  Just nice to calm down after so much stress.

    I had to get a new Venmo card.  What a mess.  They sent me a new card with a different number that was in my app.  And there was no way to get it to work  Took 2 calls to Venmo to straighten it out.  Another new card is on the way.  I was beyond stressed last night.

    Photos today are just a mix of nothing important.