Showing posts with label depresssed. Show all posts
Showing posts with label depresssed. Show all posts

Monday, October 13, 2025

10/2025 - Lunes the 13th - MY JOURNEY

 




Today's Name Day:  Berit, Birgit
Friends with a Birgit.  Love that name.  Known a Berit.

    Had an ok day.  Feeling sort of not part of things or anyone.  Glad for those who had a good weekend or monday.  I will survive.
    Today I was in a bad mood & my depression is awful. Cancelled supper out.  Then woke up early from my nap & decided to quit being a baby & go eat.  Jay & I went to Jalisco's.  I have missed them & my friends.  Had a great visit with MA about his father's birthday & how much I wished I was there in Mexico.  Fun to talk to MS then her brother MS came to chat with me.  Her husband HT were glad to see each other.  My spanish is not wonderful & his english is so so but we manage.  He acutally looked happy to see me.  And asked if I was ok.  I really needed tonight.  Ate too much.  Remember that when out.  Got home before feeling sick.
    Rained off &. on this afternoon.  Got very little rain.  Stayed cool. Loved it!!
    My car fuel was on fumes.  JR used my credit card & filled my car so I could sit.  What a treat!!!
    I think part of my bad mood is missing Hyllningsfest.  But no one to take care of me or sit with me.  Better to stay home. Rather than sit near big groups of people of families/friends while I am alone.  Such is life.  No where to park closer than 2 blocks or more away.  I really miss having Mom & Dad to sit with.  Most people I know do not care if I get to the celebration.  I am on my own.  No backup.
    Watching Rachel Maddow.  Always good.  She is also on again this friday.  And something special she has created.  Great.
    I had something in my purse that is gone.  I have searched & searched.  Ordered a new one.  Upsets me.m Probably in my car under the seat.  It can stay there.
    Cats are near.  Think they missed me.  How would I survive without them???
    Photos are seasonal.
  

The view from my front porch.  Other side of this hill has a white cross the towards the top made out of rocks in the shape of a cross painted white.  Started by early Swedes here.  Kansas prairie.

Picture I created from two graphics I have,





In my office of what I charge things with.

Winter gazebo in Swensson Park, Lindsborg KS.




























                                                                         















Saturday, October 11, 2025

10/2025 - Sábado the 11th - MY JOURNEY

 




Today's Name Day:  Erling, Jarl

    Had an ok day.  Slept good.  Eating without problems.  Mostly depressed.  Too much being alone & ignored.  Get tired of photos of others enjoying friends & family.  Lucky to have my cats who stay close to me.
    Heard machinery outside.  Think KN is harvesting milo behind my house.  Yesterday he was sowing wheat.  Busy time of the year.
    Had some great photos in my memories today.  Will post 3 here.  Fun to see them very young then as older ladies.  Always sat in church with Harriet & her brother & his wife.  Good people.  And again in FB later.
Mom had fun stories about the old bakery.  Like the governor of Kansas came here one day.  He came in for coffee.  But his driver had to go in the back door & eat with the kitchen since he was black.  😓
    I was going to skip my nap today but still too tired.  Then I have trouble sleeping at night.  Don't care anymore more.  Do how I feel.  💤
    Too warm today.  House felt ok.  But then it gets too chilly at night.  Sunday night will be really chilly.  Turn a little heat on.  Then rain will start.
    Heard from MM while he works today.  We were supposed to have lunch out but I am not up to it.  Hopefully I can work on wednesday & hair app't on thursday.  
    Wathcing Josh Gates on my tv.  Show is about Niagara Falls.  And some history of it & those who try to survive falling in it in different types of containers.  Most do not.  And are their spirits still around there?  Maybe, maybe not.  Interesting.  Love his shows.
    Need to drive to get my mail but will wait until tomorrow.  Can I eat out tomorrow?  Who knows???
    Photos are seasonal.  Not sorted at all.  And my iPhone & laptop are synching better.  That is odd.  Wonder why?  Like it!
 


Photo of me in Swedish costume, local man who had the cool bicycle & was in every parade, Brunswick Hotel.

Painting by Lars Bäckman from Sweden.  We were friends.


Neighbour's barn.

Julie Unruh art.  Love her & her art.









Fun photo.  I have never seen a covered bridge.  Kansas does have them.







                                             


















Monday, August 25, 2025

08/2025 - Lunes the 25th - JOURNEY

 



Good friend already wished me Happy Halloween so I think this photo is ok.  One of my faves.



Today's Name Day:  Louise, Lovisa
I have known one Louise.  Couple of years older than me & sort of a neighbour.  I see her once in a while & friends with family of hers.

    A better day, sort of, today.  RA & depression have ruled my life for a few days.  Sorry I could not be here.
    Our weather is beyond wonderful!!  Our low was 60F.  High hit 70F before supper tonight.  Heaven.  At last!!
    I have done nothing but sleep for 2 days.  Hard to stay awake.  Odd.  Maybe fighting getting sick.  I was exposed to someone with a cold.
    I am sure the weather is nice outside but I really did not care.  I had mail to sort outside & carry in. Some heavy things.  I do not feel better.  Just more pain.
    I am glad that MM got a weekend away with a friend.  Fun to see him looking happy & enjoying life.  I am glad for him.  Starting work this weekend.  The huge boot he is wearing on his broken ankle but had has permission to wear a smaller brace.  Got to feel better.
    Had rain last night.  Got 0.33".  Nice.  More on the way on Wednesday.  No lightning or thunder or wind.
    My spanish got a bit easier.  Nice but that won't last.  Never does.
    Saw someone riding a small vehicle in my pasture.  They never saw me.  And there are no cattle in the pasture so who knows what was going on..
    Photos are a mix.  Too tired to sort them tonight.


This is a princess tårta cake. A traditional birthday cake in Sweden.






My babies --- Kisse & Nico.


Love being there, love the statue & park, love the song.














07/2026 - Tuesday the 28th - MY JOURNEY

Today's Name Day:   Botvid , Seved        Today was same as yesterday.  Home alone & little communication with anyone.  Be good to ...