Sheltering in Place, Mood Of Silence, Day 219......

  Had a great busy day. Slept well. For a change. Hope this lasts.

Saw my therapist this afternoon. And she had a surprise! A sweet puppy named Ky. We bonded!! He is adorable. And made the appointment better. Especially since we talked about forgiveness and moving on. No fun talking about how badly 2 people hurt me and almost destroyed me and apparently do not care. I cannot understand what they did. Forgive, maybe. Forget, never. Have them back in my life, doubtful.

Before therapy I managed to go to Dollar General and Auburn. I hobbled and limped but made it.

After therapy I took myself to the White Peacock for ice cream and a mulled apple cider. The best!! Nice to sit in peace and relax. I saw one friend there. Nice to see her. We both went to my Swedish group.

Hard for me to return to Swedish group. I do not feel like I belong. Actually I never did. And if I do not sleep hard to go when exhausted. I want to return and maybe in time.

The weather is changing and so is my RA. Not in a good way. Hard to adjust. Cold weather makes RA worse. I am so close to using a walker. Scares me. I cannot wait to see my specialist. Hope she has some ideas how to change things. But no more on this. No one wants to hear me whine. Nothing anyone can do and do not want to be judged.

I had my 3 deer in my yard eating tonight. Too dark for photos. But there were not in the pasture, they were IN - MY - YARD!! So cool!!

Photos are from today. Except the one from Felipes and the margarita. A lingonberry one. Mmm.

   

Sheltering in Place, Mood Of Silence, Day 204....

Nice busy day. I slept well and thought my alarm was set correctly. Ha. I got up an hour late! But it was ok.

Cousins were in Wichita this weekend and stopped in Lindsborg for brunch on their way home to Denver. We met at the White Peacock. ND2 and I had Swedish pancakes. Very yummy. I have not made them for ages. Need to as they are my faves. We had a nice visit. I miss them and I need to get brave and go to Denver.

JR helped me after brunch. I was not able to go into Dollar General so he bought me a few groceries. And he kept the cold things in his house while I had therapy.

Therapy went well. But thinking of all the things I wanted and hoped for is painful. And all the bad things I have dealt with. I read a post about closing the door on the past and moving on. I try. Difficult. I need to make peace with the past and keep all of that and them in the past. It is hard to only have my therapist to talk to.

Took a short nap. Mind too busy.

Outside I heard a bird that Willie said was a rain crow. No idea what it really is, but I know the sound. It is supposed to forecast rain. I am sure he is confused!!

Photos are Road Trip, Part 2

Sheltering in Place, Mood Of Silence, Day 197....

Had a pretty good day. Slept ok later in the night. Nico was a problem early on. It got really cold last night. I saw 39F around 6am. Brrr. Great for sleeping. Now comes a slight warm up.

I spent time on the phone having trouble with my taxes. Very frustrating. I had a retirement account with someone local who retired without sending even an email. Sent my money to someone unknown to me in another state. I called him all day and finally got a return call around supper. Sheesh. What he told me did not match what I remember so who knows. He looked up on my account, he says.

Finally made it to therapy today. First time in a month. Lots to talk about. I had a worksheet we talked about. And we talked about my kids. There were things I believed to be true about several things but after much thought I have changed my mind. They knew exactly what they were doing to me and had it all planned. And they continue to not act as adults. Hard to talk about them but I managed to not cry. I really have no one else to talk to about them.

I treated myself to tea and pumpkin spice homemade ice cream and whipped cream at the White Peacock!! To die for!! I shared a photo of it with JS. Then he wanted some! I brought him vanilla. Kept the AC in the car on high hoping to stop some melting. And it just in time for his break!!

Tried to take a nap but barely slept but nice to rest.

Photos are a mix of old photos. I included my ice cream today. There is one photo of how a birthday is celebrated at Jalisco's.