Showing posts with label major_depression. Show all posts
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Sunday, October 4, 2026

10/2026 - Sunday the 4rd - MY JOURNEY

 

Old LBK photo.  Main Street.  Parade.  Cool.




Today's Name Day:  Frank , Frans
I went to school with a Frank.  I remember several Franks in the past.  I had a cousin Frans Train.  His daughter & I were childhood best friends.  Totally lost touch now.  Story of my life.


    Today started good but went to pot later.
    I got a phone call  at around 9am from my "son" in Bangladesh, MD Akther.  We have known each other since he was a very young kid.  Now he is married with at least 1 child, probably 2.  I could hear them laughing!!  Our time zones are not compatible. Today was perfect though.  We were both around 9am (me) or 9pm (him).  He has been taking English classes for 3 months.  I could understand most of what he said.  So smart!!  He is a fine, handsome young man.  I am lucky to know him.  And proud of him.  He always calls me Mom. 😀
    Then I went back to sleep.  I have a path to my furnace for the repairmen.  Got things ready to go outside.  Of course I had no help.  My back is killing me.  So is my knee & my wrist.  And a headache.  No one asked or helped.  A quien le importa. 
    It was really cold last night.  Then working today I got too warm.  Of course.  No heat means no AC.  Have the ceiling fan on in the living room.
    After lunch I totally screwed up.  Will not talk about it.  Caused someone I care a lot about some trouble.  It turned out ok but I apologized a dozen times & cried while I worked.  Bad, bad afternoon.  They treated way too kind.  Surely did not deserve that.
    Daisy appears to have a sore eye.  She acts fine.  It waters a bit but she seems normal.  I am sure she was fighting.  She never left my side last evening.  Nice.  She snuggled.  I would assume she & Kisse had a fight.  Looks some better today.
    Have to cancel. my repairmen tomorrow.  I cannot talk about it.  So hopefully they have time on tuesday or wednesday or thursday.  What is another few nights freezing  or sweating during the day.  Will call very early in the morning.  I have dinner plans with a friend.  I do not want to cancel.  Nice to have someone I am close to eat & chat with more than just on friday.
    I tried a new TV dinner ---- mac & cheese.  It was pretty good.  Liked it.
    Spanish is next.  Hope it goes ok.  I am just too distressed today for anything.

Love these photos.  What fun it would be to be on it!!!  Playing blackjack!!






Autumn












Halloween



Sore right eye..  Poor baby.

Daisy napping today.  She looks like I feel,

Cinder

So cute

Dalahäst at White's


Swedish cousin

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Willie's friends & coffee mates.  I coffeed with Harvey after Willie died.  He was so cool.  Misss him.

My day!!!































































                                             








                  


Sunday, February 15, 2026

02/2026 - Söndag den 15:e - MY JOURNEY

 



A rare photo with all 3 pets in one photo.  Then added a photo of me.  We are a nice family.  Never bother the neighbours!!!



Today's Name Day:  Sigfrid
The only Sigfrid I heard of was a show star in Las Vegas. Never got to see them.  Two guys & their wild animals on stage.

    An ok day.  Still depressed & sore.  Plus being ignored is continuing.  Have too great a weekend to remember me.
    I slept ok last night.  Layed on my pillow wrong friday night so had a sore neck last night.  Ended up having one snack.
    Tried a short nap this afteroon but did not happen.  Got ready to go out for supper.  Makeup looked awful.  Will be careful the next time.  In a hurry I guess.
    Foggy this morning but no rain or wind.  Little cooler today.  I loosely keep track of our weather for a week at a time.  I see we have cooler temps coming.  I thought we only had warm weather forecast.  Who can keep track???
    Tonight was supper at Pizza Hut with C&N.  They are great fun!!  And we think alike.  So is our sense of humor!  I just had fries & my stomach did fine.
    After supper was groceries.  Cinder has been ok of her ham.  She beat me to the kitchen when I got home!!  I bought some Swedish cookies called Kex.  So good.  The Old Mill had some getting ready for the waffle celebration that we do.  Ours is stupid.  Sweden does it nice.  But we are selling these cookies in our gift shop that day.  LL gave me one to try.  Mistake!!!  💖. Sort of a crisp waffle cookie covered in chocolate.  If you can find some give them a try.  I have a package here now.
    Fueled the car & then home.  The traffic from the Salina was awful in town.  Went to go home on Burma Road & there was the same heavy traffic.  Sheesh!!!  Wonder why??
    Did my Spanish lesson & it was even easy.  And  fun.  Nice to understand a bit.
    Kisse is weird tonight.  She has run over me on the sofa several times.  Now curled up next to me sleeping.  A little chilly in here.  Maybe she is chilly.  Have to turn some heat on.  Cinder is sleeping on my dvr where it is always warm.  They fight over that spot.
    Photos are a mix.  Some I even like.  Deleted some I did not like.

Lindsborg in a past snow.


White's tonight

Fire west of my farm last Wednesday.  Nice calm day for a burn.

Breaks my heart.  Lucky he knew wh0 I was.


AI me









                                       













              


Wednesday, May 14, 2025

05/2025 Onsdag the 14th - Wandering & Capturing Moments

 




Today's Name Day:  Halvar, Halvard

    Another bad day, health-wise.  Left 3 messages for my diabetes doc.  One yesterday & 2 today.  No answer until just before their closing time.  New insulin order.  Hope it helps.  If she had answered yesterday it would have helped today.  See what tomorrow brings.  I am not promising to work on friday yet.  I am near tears.  Want my life back.  She thought that a med I am taking might have caused it but sugars screwed before that med change.  Nothing so easy.
    I cancelled everything for today & tomorrow.  Cannot drive with a too low sugar reading.  I heard if you wreck your car when it is low they can stop you from driving for 6 months.  And then you cannot have a low reading during that time.  What fun that would be.  No one to help me then.  My only hope is MM but he is getting a second job.  No help then.  He did offer some help the other day.  That may not work either.  Offers from anyone who cares about me are few & far between.  CF has offered but has no car.  And two friends have offered also,  Nice there are a few who care.
    I did sleep ok last night.  Blood sugar was good all night.  I reduced my evening dose.  Sometimes one has to take charge when there is no else at the moment.
    I had someone act like they had no clue I was not well today or this week.  Obviously not paying attention to what I have written.  Hate for anyone to think of anyone else.
    My little cousin Linnea is enjoy her 9th birthday today,  I have not got to meet her.  And most likely will not get to.  Cannot drive that far alone.  No one has time.  Dang.  Not even omeone to just ride with for support.
    Great grandson today.  He got a hair cut.  So sweet.  And heard from his parents.  And an email from a friend.
    Need to go get the mail.  Too lazy to even want to go that far.  I did not make it to my board meeting last night.  Turns out the speaker for the program did not show either!!  That is a first.  Hope they reschedule him.  A program I wanted to hear. 
    Weather sucked today.  Saw 91 plus high humidity.  I could feel that when I opened the door.  Better tomorrow.  Chance of severe weather sunday & bigger chance on monday.
    Photos are cats & flowers.


























10/2026 - Tuesday the 27th - MY JOURNEY

  Today's Name Days;    Sabina I know a lady whose name is similiar.      Today did not start out good.   I had slept well & time to...