21 june, 2023 Wandering & Capturing Moments

World Giraffe Day 

    What a great night last night.  We had a real thunderstorm & lots of rain.  Well, it seemed like lots.  Not emptied the gauge yet.  And even better is that on the first day of summer it never got out of the 70s.  Awesome!!!  Perfect day!!  Rain is trying to start up again tonight & again tomorrow. 💨💧💦

    Harvest is at a standstill.  Sad, but farmers are used to that.  Not happy but used to it.

    I cancelled today.  Increased pain & hard to walk or find a comfy position in bed.  RA is great. 😓  I hate missing work & it creates so much guilt in me.  Plus this has been just the worst week for a long long time.  I do not want to see anyone for any reason.  Trying to smile & not cry is hard.  And not being honest in how I am is too hard.  Plus knowing that few care hurts.

    Cinder was out for a while in the rain but came in when offered.  She was back out later in the day but when I took Nico out she was by the door waiting to get in.

    A couple of days ago I saw a black cat near our pasture gate.  But it was not the adult black cat from the neighbours.  It looked like a very young cat.  It watched us but never came near.  I cannot afford another cat!  Or dog!

    Tomorrow is a nothing day.  I need some groceries so I should plan a Dillons trip tomorrow or saturday.

    Photos today are just edited by me.  The photo of the building on the brick street I took.  It is our city building.

                         

 World Refugee Day

    Difficult night last night.  I wrote to JS & SM telling them I am not able to be at their wedding.  The most difficult I have ever written.  I am scared to go alone.  I am not well enough.  And there is no one who would be able to go with me.  Or anyone who would want to go with me.  Really bad night.  SM wrote to me last night & JS wrote to me this morning.  There is nothing that can make me feel better.  I am tired & I am done.  No where to turn.

    Weather is hot again.  Got up to 94F today.  I stayed in all I could.  Late afternoon I sat out with Nico.  Nice strong wind.  Some boxes blew off the porch so I gathered them up until I have less pain.

    Severe weather is forecast either tonight or early morning tomorrow.  And again on friday.  It could wait until after harvest.  But it never does.  They forecast 10 days of no rain.  Just hot.  That sure changed quick.  Next week they forecast many days of 100 or higher.

    Harvest started again yesterday.  Hope it is going well & no breakdowns.  Seems like Willie was never so lucky!!

    Cinder has been in all day.  Finally just woke up.  Greeted me & is now hanging around Nico.  Probably go out soon.  Then will try to get her in if it storms.

    Suppertime.  Hate it.  Do not want to cook & nothing I have sounds good.  Should get ambitious & drive to town to get something..  No energy.

    Photos are a mix that I took & edited in Lightroom.  Having fun with it.  I did not take the city in the snowy mountains but edited it so I signed it.

                            

19 june, 2023 Wandering & Capturing Moments

 Juneteenth

    Slept good & took no pill.  Just rested.  Sat outside for a while.  We have a nice breeze.  Helps with the heat.  Last night they said we would have 10 days with no rain.  Now they have added some rain on wednesday morning.

    Supposed to be in the 90s all week.  I dread it & those who love the heat & want it hotter & hotter do not understand.  I do not feel well when it is hot & humid.  Maybe it is not important to others.

    My friend JS has set his wedding date for July 1.  I am so happy for him but very sad for me.  I want to be there more than I can say.  Wish I was healthy & had family/friends to help me when I need it.  But life it what it is.  No way to change anything now.

    I feel extra tired.  No idea why.  I think I could sleep all night & all day.  I do not like this.  I have boxes to deal with on the porch but in the heat, too awful to think about.

    Been quiet today.  No texts or emails.  No plans.  I thought about getting some groceries from Dillons but also thought I had plans today.  Plans never happened so the same for Dillons.

    Photos today are of flowers & clouds from a couple of days ago.  Have a new camera app I used to get extra close to the clouds.

                    

18 june, 2023 Wandering & Capturing Moments

Father's Day

    Slept good last night.  All kids were good.  Kisse was craving attention so she was all over me & the bed for a long time!  That is ok.  She ignores me often.    

    The weather is pretty nice.  Stayed in the 80s with no wind.  Harvest is at a standstill.  Another day or two & they will be back at it.  I emptied my rain gauge.  Over 2 days I got a whopping 1 inch.  Not much.  Someone in town had over 2 inches.  Not a lot of chances for rain, but that can change in a minute.  Temps will be in the 90s.  What joy.

    JR & I went to Pizza Hut.  Best pizza in town!  Found out our fave waiter is moving to another school.  Dang, I will miss him.  But maybe he will stay in touch.  Maybe not.

    When we left I suddenly felt ill.  Why???  Skipped ice cream.  Got home OK & now all is well.  Nico & I had a cookie.  Got new ones.  They are so thin so will be good for a late night snack.

    I have been buying some new clothes that fit better.  My old huge ones are ok for home.  Comfy.

    No Father's Day celebration here.  No father now.  Tis life.  Used to go out to eat & got him a card.  My kids never did anything for their father.  Daughter left our family for 23 years.  Son just did not care.  When they were little we always did things for him.  But they never did as adults.  I did not raise them like that.  Or to each be on their 3rd spouse.

    Scared to even write about Nico but so far so good.  Not sure why.  I have left the tv off.  Is that helping?

    Photos today are from yesterday.  Photos of art.  I love being there

                    

17 june, 2023 Wandering & Capturing Moments

    Had a great day!!!  Slept good.  Nice.  Did take a pill.  I had major anxiety so I needed it.  I was up early since it was a work day.

    I worked at the SVAFC today.  I got there early & they were already open.  They had a mural to paint in the back.  I ran the front & others were in the back.  Had some slow moments but at other times we were full!!  Fun to meet tourists & locals. 

    A lady I know came in.  We do not hang out or anything, we just know each other.  She sat down to chat with me & she said "Oh, my!  You have lost weight."  She is the only one who has noticed or complimented me on it.  Only one!!!!  I have lost 3 dress sizes & no one can see that?  I am just not noticed or important in the least.  My fave online game is a word find.  A game earlier tonight was "Things grandparents need".  I have not even one of those things.  No surprise.

    I played with my iphone & played with apps to see what they did.  I need to delete tons of them!  But I had fun.

    When I got there a lady was painting in the back.  She went to where she worked & got me an ice tea.  How nice.  The lady in charge had her boyfriend get her 4 Vikings on a stick.  But she only got 3.  She ended up giving me the extra one.  Best supper I have had in ages!!  I could make them myself but too lazy.  Would be worth it though!!

    Viking on a stick is a Lindsborg creation.  They have Swedish meatballs & squares of Swedish rye bread.  They put them on skewers & dip them in Swedish pancake batter & then fry them.  Heaven on earth!!

    I sat outside with Nico.  Miserable.  Felt humid & little breeze.  Rain all last night, but none today.  Severe storms maybe later tonight here.  Time will tell.

    Things were pretty good but Nico had a bad moment then a much worse moment.  I locked him out of one area.  That sort of stopped him.  Hopefully he will calm down.  May have to go outside for awhile.  Spoke too soon.  Got a hold of something he should not have.  I finally got it all away from him.  But I am in much pain.  What is wrong with him???  Have given up.  Locked him in the hallway.  May be out nightly habit.  I do not deserve to be mistreated so badly.  I just ordered 2 more baby gates.  See if that helps.

    I texted off & on with my grandniece this afternoon.  A nice way to get to know her.  I do not get to do much family stuff with anyone, so this helps.  She is not in junior high, I do not think.

    Photos tonight are from a past Midsommarsdag

  for me.  It was when I worked at the Red Barn.  My boss created & made my costume.  The rest are photos from Sweden Midsommarsdag.

                        

16 june, 2023 Wandering & Capturing Moments

    Slept good last night.  Except for increased pain.  Everytime I got up I applied pain cream.  Same today.  Mostly back pain but several other places too.

    Last night when Nico, Cinder & I were outside, we had a toad near us.  They were interested in it but no one was stupid enough to pick it up.

    I am sure harvest continues, but nothing near me.  Miss it.  Had my harvest yesterday.  Nothing more for me.

    So far Nico is ok.  I do not understand him.  One minute he is biting me, then he curls up next to me.  Crazier than I am!

    We got no rain last night & none is forecast tonight.  Tomorrow we are to maybe have some.  It can wait.

    I cancelled today.  Hurt too much & simply did not feel like getting dressed & driving anywhere.  Wish I knew someone to deliver supper to me.  But there is no one.

    Tomorrow is Lindsborg's Midsommarsdag celebration.  I used to go but they changed parks & the one now is far too hot.  Not enough trees & too high temps.  And I cannot walk far or stand.  I have other things to do this year.

    Feels warmer today.  Or more humid.  Did not enjoy being outside.  Last night was so perfect.  Oh to have a screened in porch to sleep in.....  No such luck.  Amazon has something that could work but there would still be bugs.  I hate bugs.  A moth hit my head last night.  Yuck!

    Photos are some that I took.  Or I took most of them.

                    

                    

15 june, 2023 Wandering & Capturing Moments

    Slept pretty good last night even without a pill.  Try to take a break from them when I can.  Cinder went out early & stayed out most of the day.  It was nice weather.  She came in briefly now just for a snack.

    I had no plans today.  And today I did not care.  After a busy wednesday resting was nice.

    My nephew started cutting wheat for real.  And friends were cutting across the road from my house.

    I sat out with my fur kids.  Love the sound of combines & watching them cut & empty their wheat.  There were several semis that drove by too.

    The weather was great tonight.  Sat out for a long time.  I hoped maybe Nico would be ok then.  Boy was I wrong.  He was totally out of control.  Next time I am home I am putting him in the hallway.  And shutting the bedroom door.  See if that helps.  He tore up a box tonite.  There was no need to do that.  He won't mind what I say & only bites me.  I may need to have a visit with our vet.  I just cannot live like this.  Now he is fine.  Sleeping on the sofa by me.  But his first reaction to anything is to bite & nite hard.  Why?

    Today I heard a Bobwhite quail so near my house.  Cool.  He was so loud!  Wish I could have seen him.  And an oriole.  He was loud also.  Nice to be out with a nice breeze & no bugs.  I think most millers are gone but there are other ones to take their place.

    My nephew now has 2 cute goats on their farm!  Their daughter even invited me to come see them.  How fun!!!

    There is strong storms to the west.  It can stay there until after harvest.  Chance of rain for the next 3 days.  Sunday is Father's Day but no father in my life.  No celebration here.

    Photos today are from Willie's last harvest.  Makes me a bit teary & then my bite hurts bad so I cry more.