22 november, 2023 Wandering & Capturing Moments

 

National Gratitude Month

Name Day is Cecilia

    Had an ok day.   Woke up stressing over Nico.   No real reason.   I was all shaky.   Cancelled my hair appointment.   Tried to take a nap but could not relax.   Plus I always struggle during the holidays.   I miss what I no longer have.   And I get so tired of all the joy & happiness elsewhere.   I try to ignore.   Hard to do when it is thrown in your face constantly.

    It got really cold last night.   I saw 27 & about froze taking Nico outside.   Dang.   I need a coat by my door.

    My hair is a mess.   I did use a curling iron on it & that helped a little.   I should have kept my appointment.   Nico was ok all afternoon.   Just my emotions.

    Nico is slowing down a bit.   It is hard for me to watch ---- knowing what is coming.   Where is Willie when I need him?   Or Mom?   Alone sucks.   And being invisible is worse.   Plus I am trying to do something very nice, but maybe it is a mistake.   When people do not like me I feel like I should just hide.   Getting little support even from family.

    JR & I had supper at Jalisco's.   It was really quiet but when we left it had picked up.   For dessert we went to Indigo Moo'd.   They were supposed to have Kringler ice cream.   But, of course, they had run out earlier in the day.   Of course.   We both had Peppermint ice cream.   OMG!!!   It is too good for words.   Much much better than store bought.   It was Willie's favorite ice cream.

    Since I no longer drive on the country roads I am so much calmer.   Why did I wait so long?   The car has looked like crap covered in mud.   Went through the car wash today.   I was third in line.   Worth the wait!

    Most of the photos are mine that I took in Lindsborg.

                                

24 october, 2022 Wandering & Capturing Moments

    What a crappy day.  I feel good, slept good, & in a good mood.  So I decided to do another Covid test.  STILL positive.  I am beyond distressed.  Been crying & do not want to talk to anyone.  I am stuck here with no one.  I will say the first test that I did the lines turned bright red immediately!!  Tonight it slowly turned a light pink.  Guess I am better. ???

    Then Cinder was gone all day!  I called & nada.  Finally tonight she showed up.

    We had a little rain this morning.  Nice.  Not near enough.  Another chance thursday.  Still not enough.

    I should have eaten supper outside.  Might have calmed my soul.  I hate the tv, the sofa, my bed, & the same old food every day.  Need to ignore FB.  Hard to watch others having fun & being free.

    Sorry for being in a bad mood.  Just ignore me.  No problem.

    Photos are appropriate for the season.