01/2025 Onsdag the 22h - Wandering & Capturing Moments

 

Today's Name Day:  Viktor, Vincent

    It was a bit warmer overnight & today.  Today was a work day but due to an extreme anxiety attack yesterday I stayed home.  If something feels wrong then don't do it.  Feeling lots of guilt but no anxiety.  I rarely have this kind of anxiety but think it is caused from being pretty sure of losing my grandson, being removed from being part of a historical board (before our board meeting, during it & after it) without them letting me know,  homebound too many days, lack of social contact, 45 inauguration, etc.  I think all of that together has done me in.  It is awful.  I am not a happy about how I feel.  I am trying to focus on pleasant things.  Cannot change family or a board group or the weather.

    Had a tiny moment of snow when woke up from my nap.  I saw a few flakes fall & some on my trash bins.

    Went to the mailbox.  It was crammed full..  Hope nothing is broken.  It is amazing.

    When I went to go to my car there was a sweet little possum curled by my front door.  Maybe a little warm air escapes under it.  She just walked away.

    I thought of eating out tonight but just did not care to get ready to go.  Will be in Salina tomorrow & can at least eat in my car or bring something home.  Then work on friday,  Ready for my normal life again.

    I fed the cats but no one is hungry.  Odd.  Cinder is curled by me cleaning herself.  No Kisse here.  Last night she curled up next to me in bed.  When I turned my phone off & the light out then Cinder came to cuddle.  We have a routine.

    The weather man just loves announcing how many days until spring.  I do not want spring,  I like winter.  He adds to my anxiety.  Hate the thought of heat, humidity, bugs.  Usch.

    Photos are seasonal.

                            

    

01/2025 Sördag the 189h - Wandering & Capturing Moments

 

Today's Name Day:  Henrik, Henry

Love the name Henry.  He is my hair stylist.  And always fun to see & visit with,

    Today. was a day of rest.  I slept good & stayed warm.  Dang cold now.  We are 6 right now with no winds at this time.

    I tried to take a nap but failed.  Cinder & I just snuggled.  I watched some travel videos.  I have gotten addicted to them.  They seem to calm my need to travel.  I am accepting that those days are over.  The videos help.  They are on Snapchat

    KN came to water the bulls & picked up yesterday's mail & put it on my porch,  Nice of him.  Called him then later.  Had 2 questions for him & plans to make.

    Working on genealogy tonight & for unknown reasons I now have the worst anxiety attack.  I feel just awful.  If I take an axiety pill now I will end up in bed.  Soon.

    Took steps to put some distance between me & those who have done me wrong.  This morning.

    Will end this.  Too nervous to continue,

                            

08/2024 Tisdag the 20th - Wandering & Capturing Moments

 

National Accessible Air Travel Day

Today focuses on the need for accessible air travel for people with disabilities.  I am now one of those people, sad to say.

Today's Name Day: Bernhard, Bernt

    I am not going to blog tonight.  I am ill with an arthritis flare up.  My first bad one.  I have too many symptoms to list & things adding to my stress & anxiety.  Photos are what it coming soon here.  I hope.

                                

16 february, 2023 Wandering & Capturing Moments

    In Sweden their calendars have a name assigned to each day.  Today is my Name Day.  I used to post them everyday in FB.  Not sure anyone cared so I quit.  Your Name Day is much better than your birthday as there is no age involved.

    Had a little trouble sleeping last night & then had an anxiety attack.  Got up & took a dose of Feals.  Then all was well.

    We had some snow (hahaha) last night.  What a joke.  Maybe an inch.  Obviously no snow photos today.  Maybe none after today.  I am done hoping for anything.  Never works out.  It is what it is.

    Cinder went out at bedtime & would not come back in.  She was running & playing --- chasing something she batted around & climbing the posts of my carport.  She finally came in about sunrise.  And snuggled in bed with me.  She is really special.  The only love & attention I get.

    Stupid weather.  Cold & extra cold tonight --- almost down to zero.  Then back to 50F tomorrow.  Keeps the spring/summer people thrilled.  Good for them!  But for our cattle.  Glad they are no longer mine.

    No texting today.  Just one short text at supper.  And no video chats.  That is way too much to hope for.  That is ok.  Nico & I took a long nap.  Very nice.

    No plans for today or friday or saturday.  Might get cabin fever or a stronger urge to just stay home always.  Could go either way.

    Photos today are some old old winter photos.  Probably my last wintery photos.

                    

18 july, 2022 Wandering

    I am feeling a bit better.  And actually slept last night.  The two nights before I had anxiety during the night.  That never leaves me feeling good.  No appetite today.  I ate little for lunch but it was enough my blood sugar was ok all afternoon.

    Last evening Nico got into where some of his treats were & stole an entire package.  No need to argue with him.  Eventually he got them all out of the package & they were scattered all over the floor & sofa.  Later I gathered them all up.  What a poop!!!  But it kept him busy & out of my hair as I was writing my blog & doing my spanish lessons.

    Speaking of Spanish, I have just learned a totally easier way to do my lessons. WHY did I not figure this out earlier is beyond me.  But lessons are lots more fun now.  I am glad!

    Cinder was here this morning but then was gone.  The black cat is not here.  If he is he eats all the food.  She is more dainty & does not make a pig of herself.

    I let Nico sit outside for a while.  We have a little breeze & the temp is mid 90s.  He laid on his back in the grass & sun.  Sunbathing.  I try not to let him lay too long.  I do worry about sunburn.  He has little hair on his belly & light skin.  But he enjoys the sun.  I am miserable but do it for him.

    Quiet day.  No messages or calls.  Did have some bad news.  A dear man in town passed away.  He was special & one of a kind.  He will be missed.

    Thanks to my Sjogrens I have really dry skin.  I use a lotion twice a day.  I arm feel good & look better but they are still dry.  Scratched an itch & the skin flaked like usual.  Hate it!

    Photos are more from Lindsborg.