Showing posts with label I'm.suffering. Show all posts
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Sunday, January 26, 2025

01/2025 Lördag the 26th - Wandering & Capturing Moments

 



Today's Name Day:  Bodil, Boel

    I am not having a good day.  I am not happy.  I had a fun day planned.  Ended early.
    Slept ok but woke up with a bad headache.  When I changed out of my jammies I totally wrenched my back getting clothes back on.  Lots of pain & hard to walk.
    Worse is I feel like I am getting a cold.  Cough.  Hard to breathe.  Total paranoia about "surgery" on wednesday,  And scared.  I do not want to cancel.  DO NOT.
    Soooooo.  I cancelled eating out & going to hear my fave artist talk again about his art.  Will text him later.
    I took pain pills that are not helping as much as I want.  I am using 2 essential oils very often.  They are Thieves & Immunity.  Plus one called Breathe.  Hope they stop whatever is trying to make me sicker.
    Back better but headache worse.  FML.
    I gave up on my coats I bought this year.  The larger one is super warm & too huge.  Dang.  The smaller one is too small.  I can wear a tee shirt but no more.  Hard to get on & off.  I always wear a sweater cardigan but no bueno.  Last night I picked a coat with no hood in the larger size  Hopefully that will be the one.  Comes today sometime.
    Got to feel ok tomorrow.  Laptop goes in to be worked on & I need to go to Hutch to sign papers.  I can nap in the car after that if necessary!!!
    Got cold last night & 32F now.  The house is cold.  Turned the heat up a bit.  See if that helps.
    Wintery photos.
                            












Wednesday, December 4, 2024

12/2024 Onsdag the 04th - Wandering & Capturing Moments

 



Today's Name Day:  Barbara, Barbro
Had a cousin Barbara who was so cool,  Died in the last few years,  When in Sweden I met a famous Sweden/European singer named Barbro,  Great memories.

    My day was pretty good other than I did not make it to Hutchinson..  Soon!!!  Hard to function today,  Cold front on the way & I sure felt it.
    But work was good.  I finally finished Folder S.  It had 131 photos in it.  Far too many!!  Started on Folder T.   It is all sorted & almost all the tiny photos scanned.   Hate them.
    Supper was steak at Jalisco's.  Excellent.  Then peppermint ice cream for dessert.   They say they make Old Mill Mint but I never get any of it.  Damn.  I am giving up.  Really upsets me.
    We got up to 59F & broke a record.  Temps dropping now.  Super cold tomorrow.   Weather man just said no chance of a white Christmas this year.  Of course we won't get any snow.  Keeps the weather guys happy & the. one news lady happy.
    Watched the lighting of the Rockefeller tree tonight & the Jimmy Fallon special.   Both good.  But I still cried.  Just too depressed.  Too many problems I cannot fix. 
    Photos are seasonal ones.  My phone is updated to 18.1 & the photo area sometimes is confusing.  But tonight I figured out something new that is soooo coool.  And time saving for me.  Cool!!!!
                            









Sunday, November 17, 2024

11/2024 Sõndag the 17th - Wandering & Capturing Moments

 



National Homemade Bread Day

My best friend in high school's mom was a baker.  It was a treat to go to her house after school just as the white bread was coming out of the oven.  Add butter & jelly!!!! What a treat!!  My mom only made Swedish rye bread.  Wish I had some now,


Today's Name Day: Naemi, Naima


    Today did not start out good.  Tried to get out of bed & bad pain everywhere in my body,  But after tons of pain cream & pain pills I am a little better.  But with the cold front approaching not sure it will last.

    I did make it outside for a bit.  Moved some boxes before the rain starts.  Chilly outside,  I like it.

    I turned on the tv after lunch & found a rugby match ----- France & the All Blacks from New Zealand.  NZ is my fave team.  Great match but France won by 1 point.

    TV pretty well sucked today so I watched several Dish Scapes.  Found one from Bryce Canyon.  Awesome place & awesome video.  Snow in the canyon.  Would love to go back there.  The one I am watching now is a Christmas living room.  There is a magic elf in it that moves to different places.  Fun.

    I got a new candle so I finally lit it today,  Nice fragrance.

    Worked on some genealogy.  I am actually keeping up.  That is good.

    Had a tiny shower over night.  Radar looked pretty good but did not do much here.  Nothing here yet.  After supper maybe.

    Today was SM 4th birthday.  I could not feel worse if I tried for missing it.  But I knew I just could not be there.  Sitting on the hard chairs would do me in.  I stayed quiet all day. And sat on my soft sofa.  Getting supper ready really hurts my back.  Hard kitchen chair  But I am missing being there.  I have been crying not that it helps.  KW sent me a lot of photos.  She is the best.  Love her a lot.

    Wanting food that I do not have here.  Oh well.  Another day maybe.  Not tomorrow.  Too rainy.  Maybe tuesday.

    Photos today are free ones of Christmas doors.

                        






















Saturday, November 16, 2024

11/2024 Lördag the 16th - Wandering & Capturing Moments

 



National Fast Food Day

I like some fast food.  Probably too much!!


Today's Name Day: Vibeke, Viveka


    Today again was not a good day.  Yesterday I felt so much better & slept painless all night.  But got up & pain again.  As much as I hate it, I am cancelling sunday.  All I can do is take care of myself.  There is no one to help me do that.  Or even just give me support when I need it.  Just me.

    Today is my great grandson's 4th birthday.  They are having a party tomorrow.  I want to go but I just cannot go.  I fear pain & leaving early.  FML as usual.

    The rest of sunday is cancelled also.  No eating out.  I barely have energy to do anything.  I am worn out from pain.  I am sure that no one understands or cares but it is my life.  Another FML.  I have no one to turn to for help.  I have a short list of things I want to do but not today or tomorrow.  I have one word for my pain & that is Fuck.  If offend anyone too bad.  You have no idea.

    Cinder has snuggled off & on.  And I noticed Cinder slept under my bed last night.  Kisse does that sometimes but rarely Cinder.  I would get up & sit on the bed to get prepared to walk.  Next thing I knew Cinder was behind me.  Hmmmm.  What would I do without my cats.  I would be lost.  No Willie, no kids, no one here but my cats.  🐈🐱

    Weather was warm & windy.  Rain starts sunday evening.  Do not want to be driving in heavy rain.  Did that the last rain.  Scary to drive when it is hard to see the road.  Not doing it again if I can avoid it.

    Photos are seasonal.

                    

Crown & Rye in town.

Old advertising for Swedish coffee in the Levin Store.  All way before my time.

Window in town.  Maybe the Swedish Country Inn.

Dalahäst & snow

Makes me smile.

Love barns & snow.


Kicking Dalahäst

Be fun to be part of this.  I can dream.

 

Friday, November 15, 2024

11/2024 Fredag the 15th - Wandering & Capturing Moments

 



Ostkaka Day 2024, November 14, 2024

Ostkaka, also called curd cake, originally comes from Småland. Traditionally Småländsk ostkaka is made with raw milk and cheese rennet, however these days most people simply use cottage cheese instead, which is much faster and gives the same flavor and texture.

Ostkaka is an eggy, crustless cake with cottage cheese, ground almonds, and lemon zest, usually served with whipped cream and lingonberries.

I am a day late but did not want to miss this special day.  I love this dessert.  Never get it often enough.



Today's Name Day: Leopold


    Another not so good day.  Tired of being house bound in pain.  I was better that my left hip & leg had little pain but my right hip & leg had severe pain.  I had trouble turning over in bed or walking.  Better tonight.

    I called the Old Mill Musuem when I woke up this morning told AP I was staying home,  I hate doing that.  Then I have guilt feelings.  They are always nice but my guilt is mine..  And the hate filled treatment I got on my FB group when I made an error there let me know how many people really don't like me.  One guy apologized to me personally.  Not one other person ever said they were sorry.  So, yes I have guilt.  And my town is not the sweet little town it wants you to believe it is.  Sad.  But for the elite people it is nice.  They have lots of friends & activities,

    I rested & had a nice nap.  Cinder has snuggled often,  Over night she never came in to our bedroom,  Odd,  This morning both cats were near or on my bed.  I fluffed the blanket in their chair & now they ignore it,  I plan to take my blanket back so they can just ignore the chair.  It will soon have other blankets.

    I sat outside for a while.  Got a couple of boxes of mail I opened & brought in the house.  It was quite windy outside.  But fresh air was nice.

    Rain starts sunday evening.  Hope I am home & not having to drive in it.  They took the very cold temps out of our weather next week.  No chance of snow, Then a week of dry weather.

    Photos are seasonal.

                            



Old Mill porch last year.








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09/2025 - Jueves the 11th - MY JOURNEY

  Today's Name Day:   Dagny, Helny     Not much to say today.  Home alone with little communication with the outside world,  Email from ...