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Thursday, July 16, 2026

7/2026 - Thursday the 16th- MY JOURNEY

Today's Name Day: Reine , Reinhold

Today was a good day, but yesterday was not a good day. Just plain worn out from stress & seeing my eye doctor. I brought supper home but it made me sick. I did not work. on wednesday..

My eye doctor was scared I had a very bad eye illness. But luckily I do not. My symptoms are very blurry vision when trying to read, mostly at night. And at night in bed when I turn all the lights off I have areas of where I can on see black odd shapes. It can block out my doorway to the hall. Or areas on the wall, ceiling, windows, etc. And my doctor knows what causes all my symptoms. It is stress. And how do I avoid stress? I cannot avoid it or fix it. It is in my life at all times. I am unable to avoid or change it. So instead of work, I rested. It is not job causing it. Love my jobs.

Did make it out to eat. And I was quite surprised that one of the waitstaff surprised me with a nice hug & some nice words. Maybe he sensed I was feeling bad about life. He had no idea I needed his nice gestures. It is rare if anyone asks how I am. Or checks on me. Even if I have been sick I still get ignored.

I knew that a large box of cat food, etc waiting for me at home. Plus a second smaller box. But I have no support group that helps me when I might desperately need help. And no one ever botherers to offer any help. I managed but it made my pain much worse. I sat & cried for a while. Such is my life. I know who would help if they were not at work & I know who would never help me for any reason. I beg no one.

Today was lunch with my usual thursday group. We met at the Crown & Rye. I had Swedish meat balls on mashed potatoes. Excellent.

After lunch I had groceries to pick up. Two bags that were not too heavy. Cinder & I are set for a week or so. Nice to get what I really want. Helps to use their app & check on what I want compared to what they offer.

Hot today. Saw 95F. By sunday or monday out weather will feel like 105F. I hate summer.

Tomorrow is a work day. No lunch planned. Maybe will next week.

TV showed the awful rains & flooding in Texas. I have a friend who lives near that area. I hope she stays safe. Scary.

Cross on my house.

Took these photos

How I wish!!!!

Monday, April 20, 2026

4/2026 - Måndag den 20:e - MY JOURNEY

Today's Name Day: Patricia , Patrik

I missed these names a few days ago. Sorry. I want in school with a Patricia & worked with one. Related to at least one Patrick in Sweden. Know people with the last name of Patrick.

Today was ok. Did not get enough sleep overnight. I tried to sleep & did for a while. Then could not get back to sleep. Had things I wanted to do today but too tired & too much pain. As usual.

Nice email from JL. Most others were quiet to me.

Warmer today. Saw 82F here. Last night was chilly. I finally got warmed up.

My new cat food must be ok. It got eaten. Great. We all need changes sometime.

Kisse is sleeping here in the living room. But Cinder has taken over my bed.

Sharing some local photos today. Both fairly lately & old ones..

Someone wanted photos at Coronado Heights with the board members from the historical society. I did not go. Too little notice. And after I got fired with no warning I don't care. Not feeling part of it. A couple of others were not there either.

I moved some charging lines to my bedroom. I can charge those while I sleep. For my glucose sensor & a laptop stylus. Then they will work all day. See if I am correct.

No cattle here or llamas. Or I missed them. Too windy to sit outside.

April 20 every year.

Cool photo from an old book about Lindsborg.

Old building on Main Street. The Esping building, Been a number of businesses. My dad worked in it as a mechanic. Empty now. Wish it would be used again.

Photos from a recent restaurant. Great food but the one owner got drunk & read me the riot act so I quit going there. Scared I would get verbally attacked in public. Closed now. Poor management. Sad loss.

Photos from a recent restaurant. Closed now. Poor management. Sad loss.

Wish I was there.

Love this one.

WANT!!!!

Kisse had a night time burst of energy. While I was awake, Silly girl!!!

Yea. Like I get to travel. Did have someone promise to take me to a couple of places but never happened & never will.

Saturday, April 4, 2026

04/2026 - Lördagen den 4: e - MY JOURNEY

Kittens are so sweet!!! They looked at me but I could not touch. Yet.

Today's Name Day: Marianne, Marlene

Known several ladies with these names. Here in town or where I worked

Not a good day. Cinder snuggled with me until 4am. I woke up with a super dry mouth & a horrible sore throat. Was not breathing through just my mouth. Felt like someone wiped my throat with sandpaper. Plus congestion. That ended today right then. I have no fever. Very tired. Why me?? And where did I pick it up at??

Stayed cold last night. Saw 34 for our low. And today my house never got too warm. But I am sick & feel chilly.

Updated my laptop last night. Always scary. Just took too long. I should have just went to bed. I was so tired.

I became extremely stressed last night. Sort of a end of my rope. Changes must be made. And I will. Tough on those who do not like it. Must take care of me & how I feel.

Had lunch without problems. Then back to lay down for a nap. I quickly fed Miss Kitty. Will water later.

After my nap I got water for Miss Kitty & more food. I fed her on the porch but I sat on my bench. Took photos of the cattle nearby. No llamas though.

I went back up on the porch. And I could not believe my eyes. There was a kitten on the porch. Ended up there were 6 kittens there. Need to take out a loan to feed them all. Hope they stay safe. What a worry. I got photos.

Still feel sick. Throat hurts but not as sore but not normal. Our high was in the 60s. No winds. Nice out. I enjoyed sitting out for a while,

Really need to carry trash outside but I am not up to it. The one who should help won't. Maybe KN can help me on monday. Not on Easter though. Hard to be alone with no ready support. That needs to change and soon.

Love the drawings today. Very sweet.