Quarantine Day 79

Hotter today. Got up to at least 91F. Still windy. With the heat the wheat has a faint gold tint. Harvest approaches. Glad I am not cooking this year. To think I used to cook for 15 crewmen. How did I do that?

Had therapy today. Made me think. Too much. I have an assignment for next week. Stressed already!! (-; My therapist said she has many patients that feel exactly like I do. Bad times. And the isolation just makes it much worse.

I lay down to take a nap and cried. I won't say what I feel. When I do I always get strange comments. Do not need those. I mostly assume there is not a lot of caring for my feelings.

Was going to visit with someone today after my appointment but they never answered my phone call. I assumed they were too busy.

My nephew was here checking on his cattle. We had a nice visit. Nico even lay down and was quiet. Seeing and talking to someone sure helps me so much. People with large support groups of friends or family have no idea how lucky they are.

Photos today are not mine. They have a French flavor and are pretty and light hearted. I can no longer take the politics and hate. It is overwhelming. Sharing things that are sweet.

  

Quarantine Day 77

Family lunch today. I had trouble sleeping so did not stay in town too long.

I googled my shoulder pain. Sort of have an idea what could be going on. Pretty much what my doctor said. Need to call my RA doctor in Wichita and have her check it out. I hurt so bad I could not sleep or find a comfy position. Google said the pain is worse at night. Well, no duh. Why I do not know.

Thought a lot about my life before the virus, before I was betrayed, and before Willie died. Sort of sad. Nothing will ever be the same. Hard to remember. Not jealous of others, just sad for me. And knowing nothing is ever going to change. Life is hard.

For a change I watched a movie on Acorn TV. It was a sweet/bittersweet movie of coming of age in Britain early 1900s. Made me cry once. Great scenery. Now back to Agatha.

Photos today are some of mine, some are not, but I edited them all.

Quarantine Day 76

Home Alone!! Wish I was just in a movie!!  Not a horrible day. Just quiet.

One friend made some absolutely stupid comments about life now. Everyone entitled to their own opinion but I do not have to read stupidity. Did not unfriend but fixed it so I do not see her stuff. Had to do that to another friend also. No great loss. One person I had thought of asking to be a friend but he agreed with her so no need to ask for his friendship. Calm and peaceful is the way to go.

Sat out with Nico. He slept while I watched the world go by. In my pastures I had around 50 white egrets! I love them. They never stay here though. They are always with the cattle. I got a few photos but none are wonderful. Too lazy to get my good camera. And while watching them I saw a red headed woodpecker. They never come near my house but land on the pasture fences. They are gorgeous.

Weather forecast sucks. Hot and hotter. In the 90s. Good to be in quarantine!

Found a great new show on Acorn TV. About a middle age private eye named Agatha Raison. She moved from the city to a wonderful small village. The show is entertaining but the scenery is awesome! The British country side, the old houses, the narrow roads. I would love to be there. It is all real, not built for the film. The towns people have adjusted to the movie crew and get to be in the background on occasion. And, by the way, she does not look middle age. Dresses very stylish and always with 5" spikes while walking on cobblestones and rocky roads. Better woman than I am!

Photos today are a mix of stuff. 

Quarantine Day 75

Wow. Been isolated for 75 days. I do try to get out on occasion in the car and very safely. Been criticized for it though. I always wear a mask and sanitize my hands. I routinely check my temperature at least twice a day.

Went with my brother to Jalisco's. Then I stopped where my best friend is working. We were never closer than 6 feet except to elbow bump. Criticize away.

Nice weather today. Watched my nephew blade my driveway while eating through my doorbell camera. Very cool. Temp was near 80 but much worse is on the way. And bugs. I hate bugs.

    

Quarantine Day 74

Another boring, unmotivated day. Something inside me needs to change. But I have no clue how.

I sat outside for an hour with Nico. He laid in the sun most of the time. Left my phone in the house and missed a call. Dang. No one ever calls but my best friend. Maybe he will call me back.

Took photos tonight of what I see from my patio. Nothing special.

My dala horse says Kom Igen. My town thinks it is how you tell people to visit again. In no way is that what it means. It is a sports thing to cheer your team on. They have been told to no avail.