15 november, 2023 Wandering & Capturing Moments

 

National Recycling Day

Today's Name Day is Edmund

    Busy day.  Slept good.   So did Nico.   He was curled under the blanket.   Cinder was curled behind my back,   Kisse was near us all.

    Up sort of early.   I worked today.   I finished the book of photos I was on.   The last 3 photos were unknown businesses.   They are getting some discussion.   interesting!

    The 2 people I work for & I were discussing an idea for a holiday fund raising,   I laughed at first but after some thinking I thought it was a cool idea.   Sooooo,   I am involved,   The holidays are always depressing for me,   There is mostly no family & the ones that are there do not invite us.   So my participation  is my Christmas this year.   I was feeling sooo good driving home.   Rather rare that I feel hopeful & helpful.   Most do not try to help me feel better.   We will discuss it next week.

    Lots of texts from MM.   And he is now home!!!   What a relief.   I maybe can see him tomorrow,   See how the day goes,

    Weather was too warm again.   Where is autumn???   They are still saying rain this weekend.   And snow was just mentioned.   Wonder where?   After the commercial they will report.

    Supper was at Jalisco's.   Good conversation & food.   A birthday party was happening there for a young girl.   So cute,   I never had birthday parties as a child.   Had one when I turned 13.   That was it.   As an adult there were none.   My best friend would always remember me --- cake, gift.   But since he moved there will be no more.

    Photos are some mine & some seasonal.

                                

  

     

14 november, 2023 Wandering & Capturing Moments

Ostkaka Day

Today is Ostkaka Day in Sweden. This cheesecake (more like a pudding, I'd say) was served as a dessert in my family on all sorts of occasions, but particularly during Christmas. There is a Friends of Ostkaka association (Ostkakans vänner) group in southern Sweden which has an annual competition to determine the best ostkaka of the year. https://ostkakansvanner.se/

Today's Name Day is Leopold

    Not a bad day.  Slept pretty good.  Tried to take a nap but could not relax enough.  Weather was too warm & too windy.  Nico & Cinder & I sat out for a long time.  Nico enjoyed the sun a lot.  I try to do anything he likes.

    MM still in the hospital.  Has an IV again.  Dang.  I really worry about him.  I am so lucky that we text each other many times a day.  We both need to do that.  Tonight he sent photos of KW & his youngest son are there.  Love needed by all there!!

    A repairman was here right after lunch & installed my new part.  Hope this is all for a while.

    Historical group tonight.  I found a box of dishes --- plates, silverware, --- service for 50 people.  All are compostable.  No plastic.  All in one box.  It was perfect.  I bought some cool napkins to use.  When all my present paper plates are gone, I will order that box for me. 

    Our program was really good.  I enjoyed it.  Food after was good.  I did not eat much but ate too fast.  But I survived.

    Home & I cannot find any food for Kisse.  I feel so guilty.  I was sure there was more here.  I have tried several things but NO!  New supply comes tomorrow.  Surely she can wait.  She will eat Cinder's food if she is starving.

    Photos are from my memories today.

            

 

13 november, 2023 Wandering & Capturing Moments

 

World Kindness Day

Today's Name Day is Emil

    Today went much better than yesterday.  Nico & I both slept pretty good last night.  Finally.  I hurt all night as usual.

    Today my pains were less & tolerable until time to go to town.  Got in the car, hurt again.

    I took a shower & shampoo after lunch.  Hair was long overdue for shampoo.   Looks & feels better.

    Went to Lindsborg this afternoon.   I need napkins for our supper in my historical group.   I am supplying all the dishes, etc.   I refuse to cook.   As I was walking to pay, a necklace caught my eye.   A key on a chain.  I bought it & put it on in the car.  Love it!!

    JR & I had supper at Jalisco's.   I was thrilled to have real food.   Carnitas for me tonite.   Excellent!   Nice visit with MA.

    The drive home was one of my best.   No traffic

& quiet.   Nice. 

    MM is still in the hospital.   He got real food today.  Hurt to eat but never made him sick.  Has a couple of new problems.  Maybe home tomorrow.  He called on the phone tonight.  Nice to talk to him.  He is on the floor I worked on for far too many years.  Not sure I could walk that far & no idea if there is anyone to push me there in a wheel chair.  When he is at home I can see him.  IF he needed me I would have found a way to get there.

    Trash tomorrow.   Never got it all out & no boxes organized by the bins.  It got windy & when the wind quit I had other things to do.

    Tomorrow I get the new part in my furnace added.   After lunch.  Good.

    Photos are seasonal.   I took several of them --- Christmas lights/tree/street, stars, food.  Leaves are not mine.

                            

12 november, 2023 Wandering & Capturing Moments

 

 National Pizza with the Works Except Anchovies Day

Today's Name Day is Kristian

    I was not able to blog yesterday.   Sorry.  I got little to no sleep Friday night.  I cried most of the night over Nico.   I have so many guilt feelings that my poor choices is causing him to be ill & to die.

    Then I got word that MM was much worse.  Had had been sick for 3 days ---- severe pain, throwing up, no food, no meds.  He went to the ER in town.  Then they transferred him by ambulance to Salina.  That was the last straw.   KW took the kids to Wichita to their grandma & I went to the hospital to sit with MM.   The two little ones greeted me with hugs & love you's before leaving..  At least 5 times.   Sure needed those!!

    I just could not function last night to do anything.   I managed my Spanish lesson so I do not lose how many lessons I have done.  Guess it does not matter but that was all I did.

    No sleep last night.  On Saturday my hip quit hurting.  I was able to walk to the ER with ease.  And later back to my car.

    Went to bed.  Hip pain again & no sleep.  I cancelled today.  In pain, hard to walk, &  super depression.

    I should have forced myself to at least eat out tonight.  But I just did not have it in me.  I want to see MM so bad but KW  is with him & they both write me often.

    I tried to nap today but could not.  I changed the blanket on the sofa which is nice.  I spent the afternoon editing photos & sorting photos I have.  It was sort of relaxing.  Did not cook for supper but that is ok.  Just for me so what does it matter.  If I lived in town I could have ordered in.  If I just had someone who could bring me food but god forbid there be someone for me.  I have only me to depend on.  Refused to ask KW.  Too far to drive.   It is really tough to lose most family & have few friends.   Alone is not good or fun.   And, of course, no one but MM offered help.  No one else for me.

    Weather is ok.  We had a little rain yesterday morning.  Did not get much but it smelled nice.

    Tonight I set up a new diffuser.  I am using the essential oil Autumn Eternity Blend.  Smells nice.

    This afternoon I was a long program about Normandy & all the new information that they are finding.  Very interesting.

    I apologize for whining about my life.  I try to stay quiet.  I learned fast that when Willie died I became invisible to all of his friends.  That has not changed.  Nor will it.  And with several chronic diseases,  your learn fast that no one cares or wants to know.  So I try to keep quiet.  In the car yesterday on the way to the hospital. I actually did some yelling.  😵  Needed to do that!!  Have to do that more often!!!  Hope no one could read my lips!!

    Photos are mostly from out here.  Might be an odd one or two.  I will try to be in a better mood tomorrow.

                        

09 november, 2023 Wandering & Capturing Moments

 Today's Name Day is Teodor

    This morning was ok but this afternoon was not.  Difficult times for me plus a change in the weather is attacking my body.

    Cannot write today.  My mind is whirling.  No need to complain.  Told I should be used to this.  I am tired of being alone with no support other than it is what it is.  FML.

    Photos are of our cattle.  One shows how much dust there is when someone drives down our road.

            

                

08 november, 2023 Wandering & Capturing Moments

 Today's Name Day is Vendela

    Had an ok day.  Slept pretty good.  So did Nico.  But he scared me this morning.  He was all stretched out asleep.  I petted & shook him but nothing.  When I called his name he woke up.  Not ready for the inevitable.  His eyes are not good.  Makes me so sad.  I am a terrible mom to him.  None of this should have happened to him.  I am sooo sorry.

    Took a short nap.  Drinking my power drinks yesterday did not bother my sleep much.

    JR & I got our Covid booster shots.  The text I get from a medical site that has said there is no or little flu/Covid here.  But yesterday they said there is more here now.  Glad we got our shots.  Had it once.  That is enough.

    We had supper at Jalisco's.  They got very busy then they all left.  When we left it was filling up again.

    It was cooler today.  With heavy fog this morning again.  This morning was perfect.  Calm winds & clouds.  Cattle near my yard.  No chance of rain from now through next week.  Too dry.  And not getting better.  Driving on the dirt roads are just awful.  So much dirt flying that I cannot see if I am meeting one car or more.

    At JR's house we found a HUGE leaf!!  No idea what tree it came from.  I photographed it.  Worked out great as my photos for tonight are photos of leaves I have taken.  My trees are losing leaves but no pretty colors.  Losing from the drought.