Sheltering in Place, Mood Of Silence, Day 247....

  Nice weather day. But tomorrow the howling winds return. Love it!! 

Got up early and made it to town for a burger before my therapy. What a joy to walk!! And not look awful. Jalisco's was kind of quiet so MA and I had time to chat a bit. Always nice. And I was lucky enough to get a sweet hug from JG.

Had therapy after lunch. It was good. Told her I had an epiphany about my RA. Then we talked about my kids Always a joyous conversation. It will never be good as long as they cannot be adults. But we talked and laughed and there were no tears.

JS called this evening. Nice to hear from him. Been a long time. We caught up a bit. I enjoyed the call.

I was just out with Nico. Near our yard there was a deer. It never went far. It watched us and heard me talk. So cool. I love having them around.

Texted tonight with a friend. Sweet friend. He said some things that made me think. And to dare to think of what I might want. But Will never have. No need to want, even if I have never had it. I have learned I rarely get what I want.

I worry about the holidays and friends and family. I am grateful there is no family that want to see me over they holidays. Better to be alone. Kansas is now in the Top 10 most dangerous states to visit. Our governor tried to have a mandate to protect us but the politicians in Topeka shot her down. Too many in the country do not care about others. 

Photos are mostly recent ones. Photo of a new book and a page from it that came today. A note from my UPS person. Thought I knew who it was but I was wrong. And 2 older photos --- a castle that was in my family a few generations ago and a building in another small town.