14 june, 2022 Wandering

    What  a day.  Seems like each day just gets worse.  And worse.  I did have a hair app't.  And with no warm water, I did not care what was happening, I was getting my hair shampooed, cut, & styled.  My morning was good.  I needed HP, my stylist, & some pampering.  And a hug.  Those are few & far between.

    I picked JR up & we had pizza.  I actually had pasta & it was sort of tasteless.  Maybe just me.  Then we went to my house.  I have never ever been a good housekeeper.  And the more I hurt, the less I do.  I have never had anyone to give me some help.  Not my husband.  My kids helped one day.  That was not a good day.  Today we went through lots of stuff & JR carried things out to my trash bins.  He even flattened all the boxes.  Then he walked all around my yard & picked up any trash he found.  Plus he noticed my back door has no door knob.  Huh???  Dang.  How did that happen?  Something knock it off in all the strong winds we have had?  Now what??  I will not open.

    I called my usual plumbing guy, who promised me he would return in hot weather to add freon to my AC.  I told him what I needed.  He did not care.  Refused to touch my water heater for any reason.  He had too many AC's to work on.  Guess he forgot one was mine.  I asked on FB for advice on who to call.  I got many names but really do not know any of them.  I called someone family had used.  But they may not drive out here.  Oh the joys of country living.  I talked to the secretary twice but never heard more.  So I wait.  I have someone in mind but I want to make sure who I get will do a tankless water heater.  So now I wait.

    The room my closet with the heater is a room with stuff in it ---- my stuff, Willie's stuff, Mom's stuff.  It is a catch all.  JR might have to help me get a path to the closet.  AND.  Now I see the water heater is dripping  a little again.  It was dry this morning but not tonight.  I am so tired & so stressed.  Will make a path tomorrow.  With help.

    Tonight I am truly at the end of my rope.  Nico has gotten in to more stuff than I can count.  He has a package of dog treats he does not even like.  I collect antique post cards concerning my town.  He somehow got a hold of 2.  Luckily there were not hurt.  He cannot mind one request.  I decided maybe he needed to go out.  Did he do anything?  Nope.  Just roamed around, rolled in the grass, sat & stared.  Getting up & down is now a cardiac workout for me.

    Hope he is calm now for a while.  Hope.  He "helped" JR work.  Kisse was hiding, as usual.  I need to sweep the living room tonight.

    Saw a farmer harvesting wheat leaving Salina today.  I texted my nephew & he started this afternoon.  His son is helping as usual!  His wife has checked on me twice.  Nice.

    I keep wondering when I will have a good & relaxing time & people to enjoy it with.  Should not wonder.  Just makes me cry.  Had one bad moment yesterday.  Another today.

    Photos are a mix.  First photo is a Swedish apple tree.  My grandfather made them.  All are different.  Then Lindsborg's city building.  Think it was a bank originally.  Local dalahäst.  We have many in town.  Then past harvest photos.  And a bear collage.