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Today's Name Day: Knut
This is King Knut's Day. He gave the Swedish people a few extra days of Christmas.
Today was an ok day. Except I was freezing in bed. I finally got up around 8am. I put on my heaviest socks & a sweater. Then I turned the heat up & turned on my room heater. Been comfy all day. Napped until noon. No afternoon nap.
Had at least 3 messages from UPS. With 3 different delivery days for what I am waiting for. Obviously today was incorrect infomation. Now to hope for tomorrow. I am so frustrated.
Got word a first cousin passed away yesterday. No idea why. No one in that family have talked to me in years. I was the flower girl in his parents wedding. When families got too big to celebrate together, we sort of got ignored. Mom would get along for a while & then she and his mother would fight. Awful. I just do not even try.. I always missed family but I was the oldest of the kids so I never had cousins to play with. They were all 6 years younger than me. So none of them wanted anything to do with me. One time Dad was playing with one of them & I thought I would join, Well, that was wrong. He told me to go somewhere else & sit down & be quiet. No attention for me. Just an empty corner. My brother was close to lots of family but I was never part of anything. I got married young & worked in another town. Sad for me.
Warmer this week & super cold next weekend. Snow on the weekend.
I was on the phone with one of the cousins I am close to. She had been talking one of our aunts & she may find out our cousin died. I can guarantee NO ONE will let me know anything.
I would like to eat but she is going to call me back if she learns anything,
Will my rambling on. Talking about family is always upsetting for me. Knowing I meant nothing to anyone.
The first time I knew for sure something was awfully wrong with Willie he brought me a bouquet for my birthday. It was like a dozen long stemmed red roses. I was shocked. He would never spend that much money on me. He asked me what kind of flowers they were since they were so expensive. He had no clue what a rose was. Nice bouqhet. 😯😧
Driveway headed to my house.
Willie & one of our Border Collies. She always bought at his leg when he walked. All year long.
Family made me feel like this just now.
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