Sunday

My brother & I did go out to eat today at Jalisco's Mexican Restaurant. Very few people came to eat. We sat way in the back and were not near anyone. How much longer we can get out is unknown in this awful time. 

I try to stay calm but inside I am terrified. I do not remember at any other time in my life of being so scared. I am not a 20 year old & I have health issues. It is scary.

Cloudy all day and cold. Not much wind but what is there is bitter cold. Rain tonight but there was drizzle during the day here.

A friend and I texted this afternoon. She has offered to get me food if needed. So has my best friend. Plus he offered me to stay in his apartment if I get sick. Better than being alone. At least someone would know if I got critically ill.

Last night there was a wedding reception at our neighbors house. There were fireworks. One was extremely loud! My dog jumped and barked. The music was extremely loud. I could feel the beat here --- half a mile away! Hope they had fun!

We used to be invited to weddings, birthdays, parties, etc. My husband was loved by everyone. Me, not so much. But as his dementia got bad, I think he either forgot we were invited or he did not want to go. So the invites stopped. Even from family. There will be no invites for me. I have adjusted. Knowing how many feel, I would stay home anyway.

I heard frogs last night, but quiet today. Smart. I never made it out to photograph the little flowers blooming next to my home. Tomorrow. There will be rain drops on them then.

The day ends. Quiet and peaceful. Even though I have the debate on. Will turn off soon and travel back in time to Canada 1900. Better than here and now. My fur kids are calm and quiet. All is peaceful.