10/2025 - Sábado the 18th - MY JOURNEY

 

Willie & our dog Ruffa.  She was a sweetheart.

Today's Name Day:  Lukas

I know one Lukas.  Friend who works at the Öl Stuga. 

    A so-so day.  Slept ok but sad all day.  I ignored the festival in Lindsborg.  Made no comments on any of the photos.  Those who could help me get to the parade were busy working.  The one who could have helped but has no job never offered anything.  I am pretty sure no one missed my presence.  Weather was good for it all.  Hope the crowds were big & well behaved.

    Today was a Jammie Day.  No one cares what I am wearing. 

    I was just outside.  Air is really cool feeling.  It is 59 out now.  I stayed out for a while.  I thought there would be mail on my porch.  Must all be small & in my mail box.  Did not go check.

    I had ear buds to listen to stuff at work but they are missing.  I know I used them in the gallery but not seen them in that bag either.  Ordered new ones.  They work fine.  Not expensive.

    Cinder napped with me all afternoon.  No clue where Kisse was.  Sometimes she sleeps under my bed.

    Had an email from JL.  Text from JS last night.  LL, MM, CW were all quiet & busy.  Got a dog photo from CF.  No chat.  He had assured me that he & his other grandmother would enjoy live chatting with me.  Well, that never happens.  I won't ask.  I fit in nowhere.

    Had a chance of rain earlier but got nothing.  Maybe later????  Not holding my breath.

    Photos are mostly Halloween.  Will do all autumn tomorrow.

    Lunch was light but upset my stomach.  Supper so far is ok.  Nothing good.  Not what I wanted.  Hope I get over this someday.

    I called my pharmacy yesterday.  Can get my Covid shot & flu shot for nothing.  Thanks to Medicare.  Good.  A friend who is much younger than me will have to drive several hundred miles to get any kind of shots.  Not available to him & his kids here.  Gonna cost several hundred dollars.  How are our lives better???

    Big country wide protest today.  And many countries in the world for our support.  All went well with no violence that I have heard of yet.  Again, how are our lives better????  Only for billionaires.  😱

 

From a few years ago,  Fun!

                                                                  

10/2025 - Viernes the 17th - MY JOURNEY

 

Willie's 84th birthday

Today's Name Day:  Antonia, Toini

I have known many with the name Tony or Toni, both here or in Sweden

    Challenging day for me.  I planned to work but woke up & started crying.  Today would have been Willie's 84th birthday.  Lots of memories.  Knowing his last years were awful being alcoholic & having dementia.  Did he even know who I was?  We never had the chance just to relax.  We missed out on having some good years.  So sad.

    Our nephew was born on Willie's birthday.  He was soooo thrilled. He beamed from ear to ear.  He always loved CN so much.  Great memories.

    I wrote to LL but got no answer.  She has far more important things going on than my life.  No big deal.  Hope she has a great weekend.

    MM has texted me several times.  And we texted when he got off work last night.  Said he had 3 drunken fights to deal with at work.  The life of a bartender.  I worry about him sometimes.

    Had a nice email from  JL..  She is busy with projects & better weather.

    Got no rain here overnight.  Maybe tonight?? The high is now 81F.  Light winds.  Cooler weather is on the way.  Hopefully the 80s are over for many months.  

    I did check out the Lindsborg website & they are streaming the festival.  I won't be watching.  Maybe the parade tomorrow. Maybe.  JR is in his height of glory, loving every minute.  Good for him.  As usual I am left out & watching others having fun.

    My mind worked overtime last night.  Photos of me as a baby/toddler being happy with happy parents & other family.  What did I do to end that happiness?  Even as a child.  Or someone else who stopped my happiness.  Cannot remember.  Those memories are blocked. I remember no happiness as a child except with the neighborhood kids & high school friends.  Then they all moved on without me.  I never dare to try to be part of groups of friends/family now.  I am far to used to rejection.  Want no more.

    Lunch has upset my stomach. And I barely ate anything.  Getting old.  Glad I am home.

    Photos today are a lot of Willie & memories.  And autumn ones.

   

                      

At our son's second wedding reception. What a mistake of a marriage!!!

My high school senior photo

Used to have joint celebrations but only for a couple of years,  Then not for Willie, just CN.

10/2025 - Jueves the 16th - MY JOURNEY

 

Halloween cookie

Today's Name Day:   Finn

    A better day.  Heard from MM.  And email from JL.  Everyone else was quiet.  Decided not to bother anyone.  I told MM to just forget me next week but he wont hear of it.

    Warm today but rain in the NW corner of Kansas.  Nothing too severe but a couple of warnings posted now.

    I had a hair appointment.  I was scared Henry would not want me as a customer anymore.  But he asked how my life is going.  He almost always calls if I do miss an appointment but he ignored me  a week ago.  But I sure apologised.  My hair looks so much better!!!  A lot shorter.  Made sure my next appointment is on my calendar.

    I stopped at Arby's on the way home.  Beef sandwich, apple turnover, coke.  Cinder help me eat my beef meat.  She does not always like people food.  Today she begged.

    Bad time to leave my appointment in Salina.  Super busy. Quitting time!  No bueno.

    I do not like most tv shows on the 3 main networks.  But thursday nights have a couple of shows I do like.  New ones tonight!

    Got home & Kyle had picked up most of my boxes.  Bless his heart.  He said just put boxes out anytime & he would take care of them.  I am blessed.

    Glad to miss the festival this weekend.  No one to help me get there anyway.  Better if I just stay home.  No one will miss me.  Maybe the lady who screamed at me 2 years ago when I dared to park near the SVAFC door because I am in pain & cannot walk far.  She did not care when I explained.  There are 20 other parking spots.  I took one.  She does not own them all.  I will not be even close to there this weekend.  I am on an official sabbatical until january 1, 2026.  So is MH.  Will miss him.  Try to see him occasionally at the Peacock,

    Hope LL had a better day. Will not bother her though.  Busy weekend for her & njthe Mill.  Might text AP.

    Got to trim my fingernails.  How can they grow so fast???  What a pain in the butt.

    Photos are mostly seasonal ones.

   

Snow anyone????

New Hair.