01/2026 - Måndagen den 26:e - MY JOURNEY

Today's Name Day:  Bodil, Boel

    Had an ok day.  Super quiet.  Email from Jl.  Long discussion.  Nothing to me from MM until almost supper.  He shared photos earlier.  Just not for me. Then an odd photo but we chatted a bit.

    Salina broke a major temperature record last night.  We got down to -16F that broke a record from 1904.  I was cold during the night.  Now I know why.  My covers worked good.  And Cinder slept on me for a long time.  I did turn the heat up but did not help a lot..

    Took a short nap with Cinder. Got up & cleared off a chair the cats liked.  See if they like it again.  I had too much junk on it.  Organised it all.  See if that helps.

    Then I fixed my leaky window.  A professional job???  Hardly.  But I feel less air.  And lowered the blind.  I do what I can do.  The sun beating in the window affects my thermostat that is outside my bedroom door.  Hope this helps.
    Asked after for help with that window after Willie died.  Nope.  Did not happen.  Promises broken.  Used to that.  And I won't beg.  Asked again more recently for help.  Not gonna happen now either. I do what I can do.  See if it helps.
    House is still chilly but feels ok. Sun shining helps. Even though I had the heat turned up during my nap.  Room heater on now. Maybe need a more powerful one.

    Planning on eating out tomorrow & buying a few groceries.  I need more soda to drink.  So addicted.  And Cinder will be out of treats soon.  And I am ready for real food.  And seeing my Mexican amigos.

    I see where the Old Mill is open again & sidewalks are cleaned off.  I am preparing for a cold basement.  Hope the sidewalks are easy to walk on.  

    I forgot I bought light bulbs that will work even with no electricty.  I will add them to lights I use a lot.  Better than being in the dark.  They also have special plugins so you can carry them around for light.

    Found the tv dinner I have looked for.  I buy the brand Hormel & the roast I can find I do not like.  The mashed potatoes are like a large wad that is hard to mix the salt & pepper in.  The meat is a slab.  Hard to cut to eat.  I found the one I remember.  Called pot roast.  Just chunks of meat & potatoes.  Perfect & so good.  Nice supper.

    I actually got mail delivered on my porch today.  Probably some in my mail box but ignored it today.  Check tomorrow.  Did not want to bundle up for such a short trip.  And letting the car warm up.

    I was in my feelings of FOMO today (afraid of missing out) watching friends laughing & having a good time together.  My life.  Always left out.

    I have been writing a lot.  That is good.  Helps my mind & blog has much less whining in it.

    Have a sick cousin in Kentucky in ICU.  Really bad.  Will check on her tomorrow.  Her brother wrote nothing today.  Could be either good or bad.  She is older than me.

    After Willie died our neighbour asked about fixing my house up.  He had tried to convince Willie but his dementia was too bad.  So we worked out a deal.  He needed another combine & I had 3.  So he could pick which one he wanted & I got new siding on my house.  And what a difference it makes.  Very air tight.  I only drip water in one faucet & the others still work & don't freeze.   He is a great neighbour.  Helped me out several times without being asked.   I like him.

    Photos are better tonight than last night.  Seasonal mix.

In a heart beat!!!

Scenes from Lindsborg.  Large Jaderborg mansion, entrance to Bethany College, gazebo in Swensson Park

Sweet!

Willie loading large hay bale to feed cattle with.  This truck is still part of the farm & is used.

Love this photo

Nico napping with his baby.

                                             

         

01/2026 - Söndag den 25:e - MY JOURNEY

 

Today's Name Day:  Pål,  Paul

Grew up with a Paul.  He was the best.  As kids we got married under the blooming apple tree!  Had a cousin Paul.  Great sense of humour but super conservative.  Several Pauls in town.

    Had a good night.  Ate a couple of times but slept good.  I saw for a low here -11F.  Cold!!!  And I saw that Salina had almost 8 inches of snow.  It is pretty deep out here.  Doesn't look so bad until you start to shovel or blade the driveway off.  Super deep.

    When I got up my weather apps showed it was -11F here but the indoor/outdoor temp showed 19F.  No way.  Looked on my porch at an old temp hanging there & it showed -8F.  Sun is reflecting off the house or snow or something.

    KN & CN came after lunch to clean my drive way off.  CN was shoveling around my car & on my porch.  Many new animal prints today.  Large ones around my car.  Large ones around my back door.  And huge ones around the yard there by the back door.  Need to have a camera here & there so I can see what is here.  Scary to think.  That is why my cats are inside pets only.

    I had planned on eating in town today but just too cold.  And living alone I am scared to drive around alone.  Those who think I am stupid have nice support groups that I do not have.

    I learned a new term that fits me perfectly.  It is "FOMO".  Means 'afraid of missing out".   And I am.  Seeing dozens of photos of groups of people enjoying life & having fun & socializing really hurt.  I am not part of any thing.  I barely get a text during the day.  Let alone an invite.  The article I read said to find things to do at home alone that I enjoy..  I do try.  No choice.  And it is obvious how few people care or like me.

    I saw the cattle at the pond again.  They have water at KN's house but the pond is like their "favourite bar".  They prefer to drink there!!!  Took no photos today.  Too cold to be out.

    I did bring out a couple of trash bags that were in my way & CN put them in the trash for me.  Should have had a dozen sitting out!!!

    JS told me he would call me at  12 - 1pm to chat.  I knew he would get busy & not call me.  And I am correct.  I did not get excited.  I sent him a text early yesterday that he never read until 10pm.  He is always too busy for me.  He complains that I do not write him & then he worries.  I am going to send stuff often.  He can ignore as usual.

    Heard from a good friend in Brazil.  He went to Bethany College & played soccer there.  And he also played on a team in Wichita.  JR & I went to all the Wichita matches.  Fun times!!!  I miss him a lot..  Had a nice visit yesterday.  He does share a lot of photos of his family & soccer team there.  I need to share with him more often.

    I have been writing my deepest thoughts often.  Some are pretty negative.  Things I do not want to share with others.  And they do not want to hear me whine.  But not whining won't make anyone like me though.

    Got news a cousin in Kentucky is in ICU on a ventilater.  Not good.  She was such a beautiful girl.  But she is mentally unhealthy with age & some of her decisions have caught up with her.  She wants to die & very well might.  I am sorry for the stress her family is having.  She is older than me.  So sad.

    House is chilly.  My room heater was turned wrong sort of in a corner.  Moved  & hope that helps.

    Photos are nothing special.  Have to try harder tomorrow.