Today's Name Day: Pål, Paul
Grew up with a Paul. He was the best. As kids we got married under the blooming apple tree! Had a cousin Paul. Great sense of humour but super conservative. Several Pauls in town.
Had a good night. Ate a couple of times but slept good. I saw for a low here -11F. Cold!!! And I saw that Salina had almost 8 inches of snow. It is pretty deep out here. Doesn't look so bad until you start to shovel or blade the driveway off. Super deep.
When I got up my weather apps showed it was -11F here but the indoor/outdoor temp showed 19F. No way. Looked on my porch at an old temp hanging there & it showed -8F. Sun is reflecting off the house or snow or something.
KN & CN came after lunch to clean my drive way off. CN was shoveling around my car & on my porch. Many new animal prints today. Large ones around my car. Large ones around my back door. And huge ones around the yard there by the back door. Need to have a camera here & there so I can see what is here. Scary to think. That is why my cats are inside pets only.
I had planned on eating in town today but just too cold. And living alone I am scared to drive around alone. Those who think I am stupid have nice support groups that I do not have.
I learned a new term that fits me perfectly. It is "FOMO". Means 'afraid of missing out". And I am. Seeing dozens of photos of groups of people enjoying life & having fun & socializing really hurt. I am not part of any thing. I barely get a text during the day. Let alone an invite. The article I read said to find things to do at home alone that I enjoy.. I do try. No choice. And it is obvious how few people care or like me.
I saw the cattle at the pond again. They have water at KN's house but the pond is like their "favourite bar". They prefer to drink there!!! Took no photos today. Too cold to be out.
I did bring out a couple of trash bags that were in my way & CN put them in the trash for me. Should have had a dozen sitting out!!!
JS told me he would call me at 12 - 1pm to chat. I knew he would get busy & not call me. And I am correct. I did not get excited. I sent him a text early yesterday that he never read until 10pm. He is always too busy for me. He complains that I do not write him & then he worries. I am going to send stuff often. He can ignore as usual.
Heard from a good friend in Brazil. He went to Bethany College & played soccer there. And he also played on a team in Wichita. JR & I went to all the Wichita matches. Fun times!!! I miss him a lot.. Had a nice visit yesterday. He does share a lot of photos of his family & soccer team there. I need to share with him more often.
I have been writing my deepest thoughts often. Some are pretty negative. Things I do not want to share with others. And they do not want to hear me whine. But not whining won't make anyone like me though.
Got news a cousin in Kentucky is in ICU on a ventilater. Not good. She was such a beautiful girl. But she is mentally unhealthy with age & some of her decisions have caught up with her. She wants to die & very well might. I am sorry for the stress her family is having. She is older than me. So sad.
House is chilly. My room heater was turned wrong sort of in a corner. Moved & hope that helps.
Photos are nothing special. Have to try harder tomorrow.
