07/2026 - Saturday the 25nd - MY JOURNEYta

 

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Today's Name Day:  Jakob

I had several more recent ancestors that were named Jakob.  All had the last name of Train.  All related.  An old swedish first name.  Never hear it now.  Maybe in Scandinvia.  My Train family used to be important.  They had a furniture store, radio repair shop, horse drawn carriage, repair shop, & funeral home.  One version of the funeral home was the second floor of the furniture store.  A block away was another location where they prepared the body but no service.  Then they moved to a large home of all their services.  That remains today. Beautiful.  There was also a large building just across the alley of their big business bulding.  For some reason it was torn down.

    Today just another day at home alone.  I had a long email today from JL.  She had lots of good news.  Nice to hear.  Glad for her.

    A miserable weather day here.  Right now it is 102F or 38.8C.  The humidity is 42%.  And no breeze.  I cannot breathe outside.  Painful.  My house has not gotten very cool today.  Probably need to have it checked.  Poor Daisy has to stay outside.  Wish I could bring her in.  I make sure she has fresh water.

    The next 2 days are replays of today.  I want to go to a program at the SVAFC on sunday, but do I really want to get out in this heat???

    Had photos from CF.  That cool Minnesota water looks inviting.  He is fishing on his days off.  I think he does not work on fridays or saturdays.

    TV is ok.  Watching Josh Gates.  He was in a haunted mental hospital.  Original it was like a huge town like arrangement.  Lots of kids/people were tortured & died with medical procedures.  Has a cemetery of 7000 graves.  Now he is in Mexico.  I love his shows.  Always learn something,  Better than all the murder & maim shows on the "real" networks.  I refuse to watch any of those.

    The kids slept near me all last night.  Babysitters!!!  😁

    I tried to nap & did a little --- heat & all.

    A good friend sent me photos.  He is now in Italy.  What fun.  I would just like to go to some nearby towns to take photos.  Of course there is no one who can or will  drive anywhere.  Of course not.  That would be asking far too much.  I might to enjoy life a bit.

    I have had terrible trouble getting my internet to work on my iPhone or laptop.  A while ago when my laptop updated there was one file I needed to use a password for it to sign in.  But I could not remember & just ignored it for a while.  Well in an email about my iPhone & etc.  They showed one how to change that password an easy way.  Really easy.  And like magic. Everything works perfect.  Well who knew.  It updated everything I own & all is great.  What a joy!!

    I got brave & checked my blood sugar. today  Almost normal.  Yay. Knee is much better today.  Walking without much weakness.  Guess I will survive.  And making sure I take my med for depression. Should help too.  Won't supply me with a support group or friends but maybe I can get where I don't give a damn.

Damn miserble weather

Wish I had someone to go to coffee with.

I took this photo.  It is a musk that grows in the ditches along roads.  Not the harmful illegal musk.

Family

I want this weather NOW.

                                                             

           

07/2026 - Friday the 24th - MY JOURNEY

 

Today's Name Day;  Kristina , Kerstin

I had cousins with these names.  Love them both.  especially how Kerstin is pronounced.

    Today was a so-so day.  Or in Spanish más o menos.  Slept ok.  Stress is over whelming.  As is depression.

    Had on odd morning.  My phone rang at 9am.  The hospital.  But  I was not with my phone.  No message left so I called them back,  I finally talked to a nurse & she knew what it could be & who.  There is a test Dr. Baxa wanted on bone density or something like that.  The nurse got me to who did that test.  I told her my name & being a patient of Dr. Baxa.  She heard my name & hung up.  I called back to leave her my phone number.  Now for the rest of the day everytime I got a text I checked.  Not helping my stress.  Someone could have explained why no one wanted to talk to me.  Either the schedule it or they don't.  Will call next week again.

    Warmer today.  In the 90s.  Had a brief shower early morning.  Now there is no chance for rain for a week & a half.  But really humid here today.  And a few days of extremely hot.  

    I planned to eat supper out but woke up from my nap sick to my stomach.  Probably what I ate for lunch.

    Had an email from JL & a photo or two from MM.  And saw a good friend is flying to Denver.  I can only dream.  Wish there was a local uber driver who could take me to Wichita.. HA.

    I rarely  watch CH 12 but mostly CH 10.  I really like their weather man.  But today is his last day.  Moving back to Austin, Texas.  I will miss him.  Wish him luck.  Going to be in charge of a station there & their entire weather department.

    That my day.  Nothing fun.  No caring.  Sigh.

Me as a baby.  When I was happy.

4 generation photo. If only my grandma Mimi had lived.  Would have made a difference to have someone support me.

I think it was either a photo taken at Easter or my 6th grade graduation.  I remember that the dress was green checks with lace.  I do not look happy.  Childhood was difficult for me.  All family locally had nothing to do iwth me.  I could not please my parents.  Will stop there.

Me & Daisy

                                                                         

               

07/2026 - Thursday the 23nd - MY JOURNEY

 

Today's Name Day:  Emma , Emmy

I had a nurse boss at the hospital named Emma.  I will always be grateful to her for her support when my son needed several surgeries on his eyes in Kansas City.  Several of my coworkers accused me behind my back of lying & faking.  I have gone a long long time without support from others.  They lady who drew my blood yesterday was named Emme.  I like that name.   I a girl in school named Emma.

    Today is ok.  Still pain when I walk.  Both hands/wrists started hurting over night.  Happens at night often.  Maybe holding my phone causes some of it,

    Had rain overnight.  One crash of thunder woke me up.  Got 0.68 inches of rain.  More forecast for later.

    MM & I have chatted.  No one else has asked how I am.  There is a birthday celebration outside after 5pm today.  I pretty much told them I was not going.  I hate being outside with bugs, humidity, possible rain, & continued pain.  No one understood but tried to talk me out of not being there.  Not heard anything from anyone.  Only MM.  And he always asks if I need anything.  Almost the only one who does.  KN does also.  Others who should never ever do.  Ignored & forgotten.  I cannot give enough to get support.  😔

    Kids stayed close last night.  Daisy was loving today.

    I ordered some plastic lids for liquid canned drinks.  They fit my orange soda cans perfectly.  My V8 Energy drink not at all.  If I put a thin piece of tissue paper on the can then the lid they ALMOST fit.  They look the same.

    My Sjögrens is bothering me.  My skin itches sooo much.  Then I remembered I have some lotion that makes my skin feel good but also stops the itch.  My back is the worst.. Used it last night in bed.  Oh, it feels so nice.

    Today is a day of rest.  Offered to take JR to see the big steam engine in Salina.  He said no.  At least I offered.

    Cool out today.  Have some heat on but think I can turn it off.  Will nap on the sofa or bed.

    Hope my knee is better tomorrow but if I feel shaky doing basement steps I am staying home.  Scares me.  And hope all understand, even if they say nothing.  I have to fight down my guilt.

    More tomorrow.