National Chopsticks Day
Today's Name Day: Doris, Dorotea
Had a good day. Mostly. I can name a dozen things on why I should be in a good mood. But I am beyond depressed today & it has only got worse. And on top of that I am hurting worse & worse as the day went on. I think my entire body is in pain. Top to bottom. Tired of being sick & there is no cure or help. And scared to eat for fear of getting sick. Happens often. There is a play I am dying to see in KC but too scared to go. Not fair. Hard to watch others enjoying life.
I cried on the way home after supper. I even had a couple of primal screams in the car at home. Still teary.
And I think part of the problem is just being alone. I have no one to be here. No one to turn to. No one to have fun with. No one to talk to or share with here. I just miss Willie being here, in his chair. Even when things were bad. And I want my Nico back. I miss him more than I can say.
And Valentines Day. Just sit here alone. I refuse to eat out with or without anyone. I did order me something for the day that I have never ordered before. Only way I will get remembered. Most ofthe family I have but one all have someone special & that is as it should be. No one should worry about me or remember me. And so it is.
Whining over. I should just shut up. but now the good stuff.
Went to Salina around 2pm to get a bank check for the Old Mill fund raiser. I am proud of me for helping them. Whether anyone else let me know I did good or not, the important people to me did. Although some were darn slow to acknowledge me. No one else matters. The staff at Sunflower bank were very nice. The lady helping me let me sit on a chair at a desk. I appreciated her. She was nice, friendly, & we had a nice visit.
Then on to Lindsborg & to the Old Mill. We wanted a photo of the three of us. The basement was out. We went out to the porch & stood with the Mill behind us. A good photo. And we sat outside for a nice visit.
I wanted to wash my car but the car wash was closed. Dang. But I did fill the car with fuel. I try to keep it at half full.
I relaxed for a bit in the car until time to get JR. Supper was at Jalisco's. They were a little busy. But did have time to visit with the help.
Photos are winter ones.
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