National Cocktail Day 2024
Today's Name Day: Gabriel, Rafael
I do not feel good enough to write much. My RA has gotten progressively worse for the last 3 days. Today was the worst, It is difficult to walk & sometimes to sit. My pain is very severe in my hips & back. Lucky me.
I was invited to a friend's birthday celebration, I have looked forward to it for 2 weeks. But last night just walking to the bathroom was a challenge. Almost had to crawl. I gave up even trying to attend a party. I had lunch & went back to bed, I wrote to the hostess & the birthday friend to explain. I get so tired of missing out on stuff.
And my depression is much worse, Too many thoughts of family who are no longer in my life either by their choice or they have passed on, Have had my fave uncle on my mind. I was not his favorite though. He told his fave niece that he would always be around her after he passed away. But not for me. And I am aware he is no where near me. Hard to have never been anyone's favorite or special person.
Had a video call with my best friend yesterday. But he is hard to get a hold of. Too tired from getting up far too early to go to work, Miss him desperately, Wish he was here or at least closer.
Rained this morning then high winds ---- over 50 mph. Severe storms west of here now. See if it makes it here.
In a couple of days it would have been Nico's birthday. One photo of my fur kids & of the birthday friend & his cake. Oh, how I wish I had been there. FML.
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