Sad day

What a sad day. Had a funeral for a life long friend. Too young to die. It was hard for me. A mutual friend had a much harder time. Wish I could help but just feel helpless. I will miss him so much.

My brother and I went through some clothes of Mom's. One nice sweater but a truly awful red, sort of slinky material jump suit. Not good. And a plastic see through rain cap. If anyone sees me wearing one for real, I hope the shoot me. Those are so ugly and just scream OLD.

We watched a video our friend who died had made. It was of our Messiah Chorus singing the Hallelujah Chorus. It was awesome to see Dr. Copley directing again. Awesome and painful. But as the camera panned I saw Mom singing. I had tears. She was so young. This was in 1981. I miss her so much.

Then J and I went to supper at the Swedish Crown. I nevetyliday weekend and "my new normal" does not include doing anything for a holiday --- no family, no bbq, no lake. I have learned to take care of me when no one else will.

Tomorrow is my brother's birthday. He picked a place in Wichita. My daughter is going also. Someone here is not happy but refuses to take part. Sad. We are excited. No one in our family remembers by brother's birthday. I remember. Few in the family remember mine either. So we take care of each other. My "new normal".

It was a beautiful day. Perfect for my friend's funeral. Just perfect. Hot for the next two days then nice cool weather. Ahhhh.