National Hot Fudge Sundae Day
It has been a delightful weather day. Not!!! It just got up to 103.6F. Feels miserable out. And no relief in sight. Wish I could just stay home. But we have wind. Does nothing. Later: The temp has now hit 103.6 three times. And 103.3 three times. It keeps bouncing. Got down to 103 but did not stay there. This is odd.
Up early today to take myself to lunch at Jalisco's. Nice there. All the kitchen help came out to see me. Two even sat down with me. They got busy before I left.
Then I had a meeting with a group of classmates from high school at the Öl Stuga. That is our local bar. Planning a meeting in October. I have several to contact to tell them about it.
I came home & tried to nap but no bueno. My mind was reminiscing about things in my life. Tomorrow is a special day but only to me. Wedding. Only my mom & her sisters ever remembered it every year. Now no one does. Our kids never once asked when we were married or cared enough to buy a card or verbally say anything. It amazes me that I am surprised how awful they treat me now. Should not be surprised.
I never had a wedding. We eloped. Never had a reception. Mom said she would but never did. It was at harvest so we never celebrated.
I try to remember how it felt to be loved & cared for. I think he changed his mind long before he got sick in his mind. I have thought of some good times. We went to Vegas every year. I love it there. Does not matter if I won or lose. I loved being there. Fun if you could find a great dealer to play with.
We always went with the same couple. She was my best friend. We had so much fun. We gambled together, we went to the mall to eat & shop, & sightseeing. She & I always went to a show or two.
At some point Willie made new friends. Going to Vegas with them was like I was there alone. I gambled alone, no one wanted to go to the mall, & god forbid anyone would go to a show. Those wives never ever one time asked me to join them in gambling. They never asked how I would doing. I was totally alone. And Willie was with them all, not with me.
I watch on FB everyone traveling, having family events, fun with friends. Where did those times go for me? Should not think or write about it. I will get made fun of & insulted. No love here.
My day did not start the best. Trying to get dressed & lost my balance. Lucky a wall was there!! Then tried to put both legs in the same leg. Next took Nico out & he pulled his collar off. And away he went!! I turned the car on & honked. He came running. And went in. Left the collar off until I got home. It is still loose. What next? Will try again.
Wish I dared to not go to work tomorrow. Just too hot. Can stay home on thursday.
Photos are from the Öl Stuga.
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