Today's Name Day: No name in Sweden today. It is a holiday. Graves in cemeteries all have lit candles on them. Beautiful. I did that once but did not leave them burning. I sat & enjoyed the candle then blew it out & did another grave.
A so-so day for me. Not really recovered the stress from work yesterday. Sitting here alone has not helped. Had only a short nap. Bright sun when I woke up. Then dark soon,
Got pretty cold last night. Think we hit a low of 33F. Same forecast for sunday morning. No chance for rain for a few days. I wish it would just stay cloudy & no bright sun. High today was mid 50s.
Heard strange noises outside. Like someone was in my yard. Maybe a car door. I did not dare look, Late mail delivery? Will check later.
Not much in communication. MM is busy with his 2 oldest sons. Nice to see the photos. He saw his youngest son when came home & landed in Wichita. That mom rarely shares him with his dad. Karma will hit her some time in the future. I fear how he will handle it all as an adult. Same with the mom of the oldest boys. Had a nice email from JL. She is working on quilts. A photo with no comment from CF. He led me to believe how wonderful it would be for us with him there. Wrong. I am mostly ignored. He assured me the other grandmother wanted to live chat with all of us together. HA. I rarely see even a photo of her.
JR & I worked on his cell phone account. I got a new credit card so the two of us added the new one. Old one good through november. But it is all ready.
Starting my 30 days of being thankful through all of November. I do this yearly. Should do it daily all year. But it so difficult for me to see all the family holiday photos. I was hoping we could go back to celebrating in JR's office but he is maybe not in the mood to do that. If not I will take me out to eat at noon while he is asleep. What will be will be. I only can do what I can do.
Photos are seasonal ones I found in my memories. Nothing family oriented, of course. No cameras that many years ago. Years ago most of Mom's family celebrated holidays together. But then it got to be too many people. So it was just Mom, Dad, me, Willie, & kids. Either at Mom's or my house. But as I felt worse & did not want to be in charge. Pissed off my son. Boy did he let me know. That was with his third temporary wife. I wonder if my RA was quietly starting then??? Not that anyone would care. Think that wife was the one who created the idea to steal my farm from me.
JR used to visit many local family members, but I was never included so I have never fit in anywhere. All the cousins were too young for me. I was too young for the adults. I fit in nowhere. Still don't. Only in Denver did I feel like family. They were the best out there. Should have started going there more often. Oh well. Cannot go back.
Nico napping with his baby. Buried it with him.
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